/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>77594 (OP)
Do not pity the people who deserve it. Move on, your family is not to be saved if they never asked to be saved.

>>77594 (OP)
this may suck, but is something so pathetic you can laugh about it

>>77594 (OP)
I hope this video may help you OP. I'm terribly sorry to hear that you're suffering from this misunderstanding in your family, but you have the power to stop the hatred, or at the very least to alleviate it.

>>77596
The fact that there is, and likely always will be, child pornography featuring my sister floating around the internet does not feel like something to laugh about.

>>77598
what you can do about it? the hopeleness can eat you alive

>>77599
It does constantly

>>77600
sometimes its more productive to not think about it, maybe in the future you may have a child, and im shure that you wouldnt let shit like this happen in your house

How does she even know it’s “floating around” online, or is someone just bullying her by sharing them with friends?

She fucked around and found out. None of this stuff is your fault. Let it go and idk try to get away from your crazy family in this economy geg. Also forget about innocence, that sounds stupid.

>>77594 (OP)
While I'm usually for making peace with your family, I don't know if you can fix your relationship with them. From the way you write, they seem to be mistreating you while favoring your sister. Confront them about how you really feel and if nothing changes, then just try to distance yourself from them.

>>77594 (OP)
i dont know how siblings interact with each other but since you're the older sibling, cant you influence/mentor your sister into becoming more innocent and leaving her sinful ways?

>>77624
Use this horrible incident as a lesson, do not be a sexual deviant. Tell her you will be more hurt and more miserable and broken if you keep doing such stuff and living in such a way

She just told me she wish I killed myself a long time ago and that my suicide attempt should have been successful.

>>77643
I love my brother and couldn't ever imagine saying something so horrible to him. Do rest assured that we 'teens are strong together, to us you are a brother and no 'teen would take joy in another 'teen ACKing himself.

>>77643
Why is she so mean

>>77594 (OP)
>>77643
What a vile thing to say to a family member, If you truly did nothing wrong 'teen then your family are abhorrent, there is light at the end of the tunnel, you can better yourself and leave to some day start your own family and to learn from their mistakes, hang in there 'teen never ACK

This will be a long one, but I'll try going over everything piece by piece. I may split it into several posts due to length.
>My little sister, who is underaged, is having a breakdown right now because she found out that there are naked photos of herself online. I don't even know what to say.
>There have been a multitude of things that have been utterly, irreconcilably disgusting about my family. Incidents that have left me completely disturbed and bereft, but this takes the cake.
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And what are those incidents, if I may ask? I am curious about the family dynamic going on, as that would help me understand the situation. I feel like I can piece it together from your posts, but your parents are enigmatic even in and of themselves.

>I know this sounds awful, but I just hate her. She is such a moron to share those photos with anyone. To make it worse, she is mean. She is the meanest person I have ever met and makes it her life goal to torment me while I still live here. She makes sure to tell me every day how pathetic I am and how worthless my life is and how much better she is. And now she goes and does something like this. I hate her so much. I wish I didn't, hate is such a nasty feeling, but I do.
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Never reject what you feel, ever. There's a reason you feel it, and your feelings always come when it's appropriate. The best thing you can do is to face your shadow and solve your problems once and for all. It's hard, but as with many things, it gets easier.
As for your sister, the only thing you can do for now is to either try ignoring it or tell someone else you trust about it. Maybe they can help you resolve this issue. Try looking for a "safe space" in your life, where you know you're okay and where no one can hurt you, a church comes to mind as an example.

>I should have known this was going to happen. I knew she was posting lewd photos to the internet. I told her to stop, I told my parents about it, but nothing happened because nothing I have to say MATTERS. Because I'm just a PRUDE. We had an argument about this before, you know. They just told me to shut up, to stop being a sexist. Why do I even bother to try and help.
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A sexist? Jesus what sort of family dynamic is this? A normal parent would react instantly and DEMAND their child to delete that shit. Are they some sort of far-left lunatics or are they lunatics in an overprotective way?
Anyways, if they don't listen, why bother? Why care about people who don't reciprocate what you give them back? Use your energy on healing and shaping yourself into a better person. They can only suck all of it out of you.

>I am completely at a loss. I have lost all faith for this world. This world is such a nasty, disgusting, filthy place. I don't know how I am expected to live. I can't even handle the basic mundanity of modernity. I just don't belong here.
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I believe everyone, at least spiritually, has a home. Maybe you haven't looked far enough into the world to find a place? It may be hard, since you may feel locked inside your "home", but that doesn't stop you from at least dreaming. This ties into the "innocence" part, which comes below, but I'll add it in as I think it fits here better. I was thinking about the nature-rich and calm parts of northern Europe when you described your search for innocence. If you ever get the money, and you're from Europe or want to live there, then I'll suggest living on an northern European island. Europe, and especially northern Europe, has a lot of tiny islands filled with nature and small, pretty houses. The folk can be hit and miss sometimes, but I think as long as you try to understand the culture and be friendly to others, you'll be fine. Scandinavians are usually friendlier, for example.

>I love all things innocent, I wish my life was virtuous and free from sin. My whole life is an effort to regain my lost innocence. Yet every time I gain even a tiny amount of innocence back, it is violently taken from me.
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Unfortunately, innocence is something you can't regain fully, but you can gradually help yourself and make a change for people around you. Try doing something for someone in your school or workplace, something even as small as a request (like asking someone for a pen, or giving said person a pen if they need it) can strengthen bonds and improve your mood. This requires balance, of course, but helping other people can help in some cases.
Maybe look for jobs that would allow you to take care of others? You could work at a shelter, teach children, or become a priest if you're spiritually inclined.

>>77662
In short, dream about having a humble, quiet life, and use those dreams to improve and set goals for yourself. Also try to ignore and distance yourself from your family as much as possible (are there any other family members who aren't this fucked up? I feel like there must be someone, right?)
I'll leave for a while with this song. Hope it helps you.

>>77662
>>77663
I appreciate this. I don't want to go into details, but my whole family is incredibly messed up. It's funny, the advice you have given me is similar to what my parents have told me. They say I just haven't found my "people" yet, and that someday I'll find somewhere I belong. While I'm sure that's just something they read somewhere, I think it's true. Though maybe I won't find it in this life.

>>77695
Hey ‘teen, I read your story and I am very sorry your family is going through this. It is commendable that you still deeply care for your sister despite her not reciprocating. She has said some truly abhorrent things to you. I do not know where you are based, but in the US there are resources offered by the NCMEC in order to get non consensual intimate photos scrubbed of the internet as much as possible free of charge. Something like that is probably also available if you live in the EU.
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As for the advice your parents gave you about finding your people, trust me I have heard that too. I don’t think they are necessarily wrong but given most of us don’t have an interest in being friends with normies they don’t understand how hard it is to make and keep friends. Considering I don’t know where you live, the following will be a long shot: if you are in the North NJ area, you are welcome to tag along and spend time with me and another ‘teen to get your mind off things or vent if you want to. We are meeting up soon and wouldn’t mind others joining us.

>>77695
>It's funny, the advice you have given me is similar to what my parents have told me. They say I just haven't found my "people" yet, and that someday I'll find somewhere I belong.
That's an odd coincidence!
I think there is a certain feeling one might get when visiting a place they feel connected to for the first time. There's this need to seek it out as much as possible, whether through trips or through the culture/memorabilia. I have a place like this, I won't go too much into detail but I always feel better when I think about it, and a possibility to move there is a dream of mine.
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Regarding what they said, I think what they mean by "somewhere you belong" is a community, not an actual location. You need a place where you can calm yourself down and get your life together instead of trying to make friends and have that be your source of joy. People at some stage become distractions from your goals rather than company, so you won't get far having to deal with people who only care about themselves and others, especially if you're a type who is extremely anxious and cares too much about what other people say. Talk to people to improve your social skills, but focus on yourself and don't let other people control who you are.

>Though maybe I won't find it in this life.
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Think of life as a game with two dice. If you roll a 7 once, say "I will never roll a 7 ever again" or "I will never roll a 9!" and then quit, nothing changes. You're in the same position as you were the last time you played. But if you keep rolling and rolling over and over again, then eventually the probability of you rolling a 7 again increases. Life operates similarly.
If you say "I'll never be able to find it!" and give up, your situation and mentality don't change, but if you keep trying new things again and again, the probability for something new to arise is much greater than before. These things don't have to be major events either! Simply breaking up your routine along with curious analysis and questioning of the mundane can do the trick, sometimes even more so. Explore new things and find interests you'll cherish, you never know what might be around the corner.

My sister is loudly complaining to her friend on the 'cord about the situation, mocking me and making fun of me for having attempted suicide in my past.

Sorry to turn the thread into a diary but I'm fucking losing it right now.

>>77970
thug it out nigga

>>77970
beat her