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I have a serious problem and I want some advice for it. my girlfriend and I both consider watching/consuming porn to be cheating and as far as I know the only time she's done that is a few weeks into our relationship when she watched a porn video of some girl masturbating but "that's different cus it was a girl and you aren't its not my fault I go both ways" I was a bit upset but that's not the main problem. I used to have a very bad porn addiction and she knows that but what she doesn't know is I still technically view some "porn".
JARTYNIGGER SHIT AHEAD
I have a major fucking vore fetish. its nasty gay nigger 'spic shit I know but I've had it since I was like 9 (epi will do that to you) and I still look at vore shit sometimes. I know I'm a retarded gay faggot for this and I should kill myself for doing this, but do you think this is the same as looking at regular porn? its not like I do it to look at other girls, its the concept of the vore shit that I get off to, my girlfriend cant swallow people whole so how is she supposed to fulfill this shit? I know I need to just go completely no-fap and quit this shit but for now I need to know, is this cheating? is this the same as me looking at regular porn and jerking off to other girls or is it different because its a fantasy fetish that cant be performed in real life and is only in drawn form? if I told my girlfriend do you think she'd get mad and break up with me and cause me to commit suicide? I can live without vore, I cant live without her, and I know I should quit, but what I've already done is done. should I be put to death for doing this or can I be forgiven?
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I know some of you might think I'm being dramatic and that I should go somewhere else for this but I cant talk to my friends about this, literally no one in my life except my girlfriend knows about this fetish and she thinks that it's something I haven't been into in years and that I haven't watched any porn since weeks before I even met her. I want to know what you all think I should do. should I talk to her about it, keep it a secret (unless I tell her she'll literally never know) or what? I don't know what to do and for the 3 months its been going on I've wanted to just die from being like this.
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also jannies, none of this is a suicide announcement, I'm posting this because I need help and advice because I plan on continuing my life and my relationship with this amazing woman. please don't delete this shit.
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also depending on her mood my girlfriend would either get upset but tell me its alright and that we can get through this together or she'd cut my dick off and stab me after pretending she doesn't care, I'm not even joking and I don't really blame her, she has told me many things about what she'd do if I cheated in any way ringing from not caring and saying its ok to killing me and herself so that's why I'm very scared to say anything about this to her. the thing she's most commonly said is something along the lines of "if you jerked off to porn a few times I would get upset but forgive you but if you had a full on porn addiction I'd probably break up with you" and I think that's pretty reasonable, I know I don't deserve that level of forgiveness but with porn i'd probably do the same thing with her. if I do end up telling her I'd probably end up just smashing this shitty laptop since all I use it for is the sharty and the stupid vore porn I've been talking about. that way she can forgive me and trust that it wont happen again, and I can force myself to hopefully lose the fetish. I'm going to look into ways to lose a strange fantasy fetish like this but this thread is for advice on what to do about what's already been done. thank you all in advance.
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>>76048 (OP)I’m assuming you’re the one dating the BPD woman that took your virginity? If so, my advice is the same: find God. Fortunately, I’ve found a video that has completely changed my perception of the world. I physically cringed and felt my sins crawl up my back during this video, but it is absolutely worth the watch. Once you understand the repercussions of sin and the value of our body then I believe you can work towards destroying your affinity for porn.
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https://youtube.com/watch?v=LcV0CY6Xerw&pp â„–76060[Quote]
>>76048 (OP)You need to figure out how to stop. This is even worse than if you were gooning to normal porn.
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>>76048 (OP)Goon to whatever you want, literally who cares? If (you) think it doesn't affect your relationship with her, then it probably doesn't.
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Dont watch brimstone but if you really have to goon just goon o algo
If you cant manage that use your imagination to watch the brimstone or something
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>>76064I think it does affect our relationship doe. I feel so guilty about it because I've told her so many times she's the only girl that turns me on and that I haven't watched porn at all in our relationship, I think if I quit completely (which I will do) and wait a while (about 6 months to a year) I can confess then and get it off my chest and she'll forgive me. I can try to explain to her that I've never wanted to be with any other girls and that I'm only attracted to the unrealistic fantasy, I wont try to defend that shit just explain the reasoning and ask for forgiveness. she did a similar thing when she told me how she masturbated to that video of another girl masturbating so she'll understand the logic and be upset but most likely forgive me as long as its in the past and not so recent as it would be now.
>>76060if it was normal porn then I would be gooning to the women, if its fantasy shit then I'm not actually gooning to the other women its just the fetish
>>76078I know its brimstone and its the only thing I goon to other than my girlfriend herself, I only watch this shit when she's fast asleep and I cant ask her for nudes and I cant get it out of my head, I think it'd be best if I just quit gooning all together even if its to my girlfriend's pics she sends me or even to my imagination, whether I'm thinking of her, vore shit, or both, even if she didn't consider porn to be cheating I'd still feel guilty and terrible over this and I wish I never discovered this nasty shit at a young age.
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Got ignored award
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>>76093there's not really much to say cus I already know God will help me stop being a brimmy niggertard
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>>76096If you don’t want to watch the video it’s your choice, but I’ve provided you a resource that has greatly helped me and I think it can help you too. If you’re not willing to spend the time to look into resources like what I’ve offered to you to fix the problem that you came to us with then idk how you’re going to be helped man. Two of the people in this thread are CIA shills telling you to goon abd yet you’d still rather have hope in the words of strangers on the sharty over a proper resource. I feel you’re not taking proper initiative to create a good framework for and to fix your life both here and in your original thread over about the girls, but I wish you luck and God bless.
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>>76048 (OP)just try to get off the porn bro
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Wow, I did not know the BPD-loving sexhaver struggles with epi nigger fetishes. Geg. Atleast you guys are still together or something. Well anyway why do you like it? What is it about vore you like?
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>>76101I know
>>76115>well anyway why do you like it? what is it about vore that you like?couldn't really tell you, I've been liking this shit since before I even hit puberty and I still don't know why, its not so hard coded into my brain that I can't get hard from normal stuff but it still hasn't gone away after so many years, there was even a period of time when I completely quit watching it for like 2 years but then I came right back and it was even worse
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Sorry for being a leaky nigger, but it really frustrates me that you always seem to ignore practical advice. I don’t mean to refer to just me; in the old thread you ignored practically everyone warning you of all of the red flags of both girls when you were crushing on them. When you got sucked off behind Walmart everyone was warning you to take it slower or leave before it’s too late. You always say “I know I know, but” and never do anything about it. You came to us with that thread saying you needed advice and ignored all of the actual advice. You’re doing the same in this thread, going “I know” or not addressing any of the actual practice advice and replying to bait/CIA shills dismissing your dilemma. Now here you are, three months later, on the verge of having your faulty relationship end (exactly as you were told would happen), and you’re still repeating the same behaviors. It frustrates me so much because I get genuinely sad whenever I see your posts. You always end up taking no initiative even though a part of you wants change, instead following your hedonistic desires. You are one of the worst cases of wasted potential I’ve ever seen and that’s why I weep for you whenever I see your posts. This is probably my last reppy for (You) because like I stated, you never listen. Do better.
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>>76135i could only agree with you
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What else do you want us to say other than stop beating your shit to vore? Besides your schizoid girlfriend cutting your dick off would do you better than what you're doing right now. Because like in the last thread, you've proved that you only think with your dick's interests and not what's good for (you).
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>>76135The thing that particularly annoyed me is how OP seemed to ignore any of the criticism and advice that pointed him into a direction with him having to take some initiative, instead he would just say "I know I know" and continue doing the thing that he was advised to not do. Sin is something that is hard to overcome, but when he actively puts himself into the perfect environment to fall into temptations its hard to sympathy after the fourth time. OP is weird in the sense that he doesnt fish for validation and ignore all criticism, but I think he wants to just leak onto here and do what he desires with some strangers commentating. For example, the guy that would constantly tell OP to stop trying to fix that BPD case and to move on and to set boundaries got mocked by yes men who insisted OP was doing the right thing when he wasn't. I dunno how this ends genuinely but is true that OP is wasting his potential.
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>>76272He has like 3-4 threads up right now and you’re right he just leaks about snca and doesn’t listen to advice. He is doing it for attention or validation.