№75749[Quote]
I feel like I’m not really in control of my thoughts. While I don’t think I am mentally ill or something, I also don’t want to get it tested as that would make getting a gun license harder.
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It’s hard for me to fully concentrate on things because I’ll always think of some stuff my conscious doesn’t care about and knows isn’t important at the moment, but it still won’t let me get my mind off things. This is especially annoying because I have recently (2-3 months ago now) quit more porn addiction cold turkey, and all the triggers (as much as I hate to use that word) around me haven’t let me catch a break from these intrusive thoughts or whatever you want to call them. It also won’t let me do my school assignments in peace and I can’t enjoy one if my hobbies to the fullest anymore, as it requires focus for an extended period of time.
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Something that used to help was listening to chuddy audiobooks/podcasts or, as retarded as it sounds, stimming to The Gateway Tapes. But my headphones have been broken for a month or so now at the worst possible time, as the winter is when my mental get’s the worst.
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I’ve been looking more into Christianity lately and, although I’m not fully convinced yet, I would pick it over any other religion any day if the week. The only thing bothering me is that I know I have sinned heavily in my life, and I am constantly wondering if what I am doing is right or wrong or if it is a test or a message of God.
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Do any of you have any suggestions or similar experiences? I know some of you on here are doing way worse and I truly hope you get better.
№75751[Quote]
>I feel like I’m not really in control of my thoughts.
>It’s hard for me to fully concentrate on things because I’ll always think of some stuff my conscious doesn’t care about and knows isn’t important at the moment, but it still won’t let me get my mind off things.
thinking about things you may have gooned to or looked stupid irl?
№75752[Quote]
>>75751Sorta both, but what I have noticed in recent times is that I imagine conversations with people. Mostly with people that I only spoke too shortly. It starts of with the regular “I wish I could’ve said this” and such, but my mind starts playing both me and the other person and I get lost talking to myself. It sometimes gets so bad I’m unsure if I really had that conversation (sort of how you sometimes aren’t sure if something was a dream or not). I don’t think about embarrassing things a lot anymore as most of those were a long time ago and I am much less social currently so a nice side effect is I’m not embarrassed much anymore.
№75754[Quote]
>I imagine conversations with people. Mostly with people that I only spoke too shortly. It starts of with the regular “I wish I could’ve said this” and such, but my mind starts playing both me and the other person and I get lost talking to myself. It sometimes gets so bad I’m unsure if I really had that conversation
literally me award, we're probably schizos or just out of touch anti-social retards
№75755[Quote]
>>75752im in the same boat, the best i can do is just TRY not to lose focus
ill open up xitter or the sharty for awhile and then go back to what i was doing- mostly i just force myself to stay focused on something. also for speaking to people, just try to say something, anything is better than nothing most of the time. because when you sit there quietly they just think you're retarded gegg
№75756[Quote]
>>75755>just try to say something, anything is better than nothing most of the time. because when you sit there quietly they just think you're retarded geggThis, but it’s working out better for me than at my other school when I said too much. I guess I had the find the right balance of when to speak so I don’t say something stupid.
№75757[Quote]
Also, GET o aldo
№75758[Quote]
>>75756xhis, just don't stay quiet all the time, im a quiet nigger because im a hateful bigoted chvd but theres hope for you
№75806[Quote]
Im glad these troubles have brought you to inquiring about Christianity. Prayer is the greatest thing you can do to fix an disorderly mind. It sounds like you are suffering from both intrusive thoughts and trouble concentrating, both of which are quite common among this generation. Here is my advice: whenever you find yourself either assaulted by obscene thoughts or your mind wandering, cross yourself and say the Jesus Prayer. You cross yourself by bringing your thumb, forefinger and middle finger together and bringing your hand to your forehead, then navel, then your right shoulder, then left shoulder. The Jesus Prayer goes as follows: Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. This had helped me immeasurably, and if you can build the habit, I'm sure it will help you too. God bless you soyteen, I pray for you.
№75807[Quote]
>I feel like I'm not really in control of my thoughts.
>I also don't want to get it tested as that would make getting a gun license harder.
make sure to do a funny face in your facebook profile picture
№75920[Quote]
>>75806Thank you so very much.
№75922[Quote]
you just have ocd or adhd or something