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>>73330actual trvthnvke tbh
i'm gonna keep doing my best to stop being so retarded, thanks for this
№73339[Quote]
the slighter branigger stuff i described (not as bad as when i was 16 or 17) did continue to when i was about 20, but i decided getting ahold of gooning in general and stopping it at 21 was the best time to do so for me
which gets crazier when you realize that some didn't even stop for more than 10 years when i decided 4 years of it was enough damage for me, not sure how anyone can keep gooning for that long
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you dont have to worry bro you will be fine
№73437[Quote]
>>73436thanks 'teen, i know that i worry way too much about dumb shit like this
№73439[Quote]
>>73437im the same in that i worry over stupid shit alot, if something bad was going to happen to you it probably would have already happened. just try to leave it in the past and stop worrying, all you are doing is stressing yourself
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>>73439trvke, i should be able to quit thinking about it soon enough
№73509[Quote]
(Not OP)
I think my OCD won't stop unless i stop thinking about it but some of the stuff i did until i was 17 makes me think i'm the biggest branigger alive and that everyone would want to lynch me if they knew even though i never looked up anything illegal and i'm obviously not attracted to men, children etc.
I also think the OCD is maybe caused by parasites idk to what extent
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>>73509honestly the fact you're even worried about being the biggest branigger alive means you actually aren't even like that because if you were, you wouldn't even be thinking about this at all unlike the pedofaggots that obsessively defend and goon to drawn 'p
i absolutely know it's tough, but you WILL start powering through it like how i am
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i did worst and i don't care
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>>73535kill yourself then i guess
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>>73526Yeah but it's hard to stop thinking about it because some of it sounds too messed up to cope with. I also had the urge to goon to some degenerate stuff again after but i didn't do it although it seriously sucks since it probably breaks the streak. It also worsened my POCD/HOCD hybrid wich is extremely painful particularly when being triggered outside.
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My OCD is litterally raping my brain to death. I could never imagine doing something this sick in my life it ruins my image way too much.
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>>73627you can make it, there's no real reason to worry about it when you've stopped gooning and i know it sounds funny coming from me
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>>73628Yeah but every day i get more disgusted by it and how horrible it may have been. I really hate the idea of being such a sick faggot. Ik it wasn't illegal, or 'p by definition but other then that it's so disgusting it almost gives me heart attacks now
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>>73641it was really hard for me a while ago too but it gets easier, you're going to be just fine even if it seems unsettling at the moment
considering it's ocd like i have, you should also seek less reassurance as that feeds it or something to that effect
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>>73315 (OP)congrats you healed from your porn addiction and became healthy. You can pat yourself on the back instead of being stressed out all the time.
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>>73315 (OP)i think if you finally realized your issue and chose to stop gooning to lolicon, you are a better person than you were before. good job on quitting. stop worrying so much.
>>73330this image is tough seriously.
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>>73646I'm not seeking reassurance of being a pedofag because i'm aware i'm not. My main issue is that i can't get rid of the regret or atleast constantly being desensitized torwards faggotory against my will wich is either psychological or caused by intestinal worms.
I also don't give the give the very exact details of what i have seen for very obvious reasons.
I also believe that Isolation causes most of my mental problems since my mom basically keeps me in the house almost all day, don't have any irl friends anymore or can't go outside at school because the breaks are too short and teaches are punishing us alot for coming too late
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>>73315 (OP)snca sybau nigha
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You gooned to underage kids?
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>>73671ty, ill mention that i wasn't really exactly constantly gooning to lolicon though and my biggest constant offense was mainly this >>70809
when it comes to lolipedo shit i just came across small instances of it years ago (not intentionally seeking it out since it just appeared on a hentai website), i remember not being able to exactly get off on it but it's still traumatizing that i did my stupid method where i tried to focus on the more generic stuff, aka i didn't at all think deeply about it and i tried to ignore the worst parts of what it was depicting, i also did the same thing for other weird hentai that wasn't as bad
<lengthy response, but i figured id give some more details on what happened and i'm being fully honest as i was very hard on myself for it so much that i felt like basically confessing by using my threads
>>73660thanks, ill try to stop being so stressed and i'm getting there since i don't feel as bad as before
>>73704mainly really to tranime teenagers while not really thinking about it, not as bad as real csam but still bad
>>73698that sounds a lot tougher than what i'm in tbh, i hope you can get through it and i can tell that it's been rough on you as you seem to post about it occasionally
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>>73698do people really still believe in this "worms = gay" nonsense?
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>>73711 i don't know if there's really any more to be said, but ill bump this to see if anyone would like to give an opinion on my reply
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>>73746you gotta let it go bruh. atp you are just farming reddit karma
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>>73747trvke, it's honestly pointless for me to keep focusing on it
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>>73725Much of the stuff the wormpill says seems accurate in my case. Because i feel better when taking the measures
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>>73711>that sounds a lot tougher than what i'm in tbh, i hope you can get through it and i can tell that it's been rough on you as you seem to post about it occasionallyYeah it really sucks i had pretty nasty goon thoughts and then got extremly disgusting intrusive thoughts triggering my OCD and made me overthink everything. I also got pretty messed up groinals. I also hate how this doesn't let me feel any normal anymore
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>>73789yeah i haven't been able to get to feel totally normal yet either, it definitely makes you want to go back before you got addicted at all
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>>73544I don’t fucking care I’ll do it again
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>>73789my second reply to your post: i can't lie that i have been exhausted of about everything at this point too, it doesn't help for this to be on top of me knowing i can't undo any of it
tbh i probably wouldn't even be on /r9k/ in the first place if none of this happened, never really imagined that id ever go through this and i never attention whored with any other problems in my entire life but i guess that's how it is
>>73791insane response
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>>73792Same. It's extremly messed up because just got the most disgusting intrusive thoughts and somehow i still had the urge to goon although it mostly disappeared by now.
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My addiction is coming back although i haven't gooned so far. My past experiences are making me extremely horrible too particularly with groinal responses irl. I really hate myself
№73989[Quote]
>>73985geg yeah my view on a lot of things is fucked up because of it, not in a perverse way but in a way where i feel total regret,
and i'm way less motivated to do anything in comparison to 4 years before this
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>>73989Yeah i just went through reading some nasty 4cuck threads i hope this doesn't count. I wouldn't have these feelings if it wasn't for my rough routine none of this would probably happen. I don't wanna sound spoiled tho
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>>73990Seriously i feel messed up tho for just reading some sick foid's fantasies and feeling addicted to this. My groinals made it even worse i hate being like this i'm absolute scum
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Bruh I just ended up browsing another ai gooning site but decided not to goon at all before eventually getting irritated by it. I hope i passed but the stuff i looked up makes me sick and i also feel weakened again.
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Bump i still need help
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(Not OP)
I hate you Nusois for making this thread die. I'm currently suffering from Insomnia because my addiction came back
№74062[Quote]
>>74061the thread died because it was snca
№74082[Quote]
>>74062My problem wasn't SNCA doe