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I have problem with being lonely and I discovered radicalized groups to fill that void. I dont interact with people because of my trauma bring ignored and strict parenting, I grew up with internet and my parents didnt care about me, they just gave me other things but not being loved.My parents are divorced so i live with my mom. As time passed(I am 18 in college) I felt more social isolation, I didnt have friends in school before and it was small interactions because I thought they are too normie and boring. After school I went to college and its my first year of college, and I just feel lonely and I think nobody understands me and my mental problems. I tried to fill that void with being interested in radical groups and my mental health went down further making me more emotional and anrgy that when I went outside I just avoided any interactions or eye contact - only hate, but after being dissapointed in these groups I completely went on nihilistic mode. I started being apathetic and now its harder for me to do something because I simply dont care, even my assignment I started procrastinating and passing in at the day of deadline and playing games or doing nothing every day. Can someone give me and advice or words how to handle this situation (Sorry for My ESL english, I came to america 3 years ago aka at 2022 from post soviet country. And yes, I am not slavic, I try to assimilate but it sometimes hard when You remember you past times being in my post soviet country, also I forgot to mention I have OCD since covid and my hands sometimes be fucked up because i extensivly wash them with soap, so I use hand cream/lotion. I am also very shy, 172 cm and skinny cause I dont eat a lot)
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You should visit a Psychiatrist, It is not the task of bald men with glasses website to help you with such serious problems but if you keep suppressing them further you will end up doing some fucked up shit. Building a family is also almost impossible for individuals with those traits. Get professional help, try to socialize more even if it’s hard and try to avoid the internet, or you will end up like the extremely cucked users of Krautchan
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>>69758They gave me pill from OCD, but my psychiatrist I think dont care of because my parent do not notice. I dont know how to socialize and how to start. I spent time reading philosophies, idead(Evola, Mishima and others) and sometimes it chills me and give meaning for live, or doing some shitposting. In my culture they taught me to supress emotions if you are "man", I dont even know If I like girls or men, before I liked girls but now I just dont know Who I am or do I like girls or males (I dont like LGBTQ and other inclusive ahit if you are interested). I also grew up very insecure person, I cant just start socializing because I eould think this person would find me annoying (I tried once and heard thme saying "he is so annoying", probably because I was too talkative to them idk, it happened at high school In america) . My insecurity grew up too, I cant even trust a person To feel secure I need to fully control them and know their background because I am obsessed aith purity(Extremist ideology and philosophy affected too) I want to refill the void in my soul, But I feel insecure to do some steps
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>>69758Also internet really fucked me up with stereotyped about women, like "Women act like this etc" I know its all bullshit, but it gave me insecurity about them and not trust
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>>69758I go to internet to chill and there is always a moron who have posts like "GUYS I THINK RELATIONSHIP IS LE BAD AND USELLES", as I care, and then it ruins my day sometimes If I do not check facts what said in video is true or no. I dont know what to do without internet, jerk off?
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>>69758Also.On internet when I hear a person who have social life but has a degenerate Lifestyle, it instantly makes me regret to have social connections outside because the stories they were told were so normie and degenerate
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>>69768Blackpill bullshit, get out of my head. I hate blackpill and people related to this, these niggers already fucked up my mental health
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>>69769As from ky experience talking to females its all bullshit that debunked. Its not bluepill, its just logical thinking and not making fucking stereotypes.
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>>69770Sorry for being mad but I just really cant, I am surrounded by negativity and negative energy. I hate it and hate myself
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>>69773Blackpill bluepill and all that incel shit is jewish made thing. Goyim believe in it, I actually escaped from that circle, but for the cost of my insecurity unfortunately
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>>69774Didnt mean to be rude, I am just really fucking tired
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>>69775Sometimes I just really wanna cry long, but nobody understand my feelings or misinterprate so its just turns into Hate, and hatred only because Hate warms me, but when I starting memoring my real personality I get really emotional and might cry loud
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>I tried to fill that void with being interested in radical groups and my mental health went down further making me more emotional and anrgy
Holy shit this is the most obvious bait I've ever seen
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>>>69787
"EVERYTHING I DONT LIKE IS ZE BAIT"
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>>69801This thread is retarted
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>>69757 (OP)I actually relate to this
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>>69757 (OP)Try to look better and enage with ohters anon, if you're slim and fit people will want to hang out with you.
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>>6981167 BOIII ITS SO tUFF
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>>69757 (OP)which post soviet country are u from? And how did u get accepted to the US, im from a post soviet shithole too and i wanna escape to the 1st world, and how do u afford the expensive univeristies and living expenses
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>>69942Green card amd a lot of work with paper
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>>69915I literally cant I am so insecure+ college and its retarted assignments that I dont have tome + stress the fuck out
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>I am also very shy
literal death sentence in life. you wont be able to achieve much of anything if youre not forward as a man. only exceptions are if youre good looking or work in a job which requires 0 communication with other people
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>>69955That why I go to programming, but my problem with being shy is insecurity
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>>69814yes people are dumb
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>>69955also my professor is DHD annoying fag who concentrates in one thing even my assignment. Fuck him and fuck college hate this place, hate people around me and even at my home. Use people, fuck them all they are not worth your life
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>>69942I dont go to university nigger, its community college
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I think I need to think in rhizome way like Deleuze said. Be radical, siege the system. If I am gonna be homeless I would live in forests, hunt to eat. To accomplish of being great you need to suffer I guess, like Nietzsche said
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>>69757 (OP)You would be hot if you were a girl or a twink honestly
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>>70010Eh I am skinny and 172 cm, but its not my main problem
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>>70010On internet sometimes people think I am woman because of my spergy behaviour o algo
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I dont know what to do, I dont think most people would understand me irl
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>>70020I am questioning my orientation tbh but now in fag way(supporting LGBTQ or leftie ideas, more to militant style yukop mishima o algo)
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>>70051There's plenty of more normal or right wing gay guys, the left wing ones are usually just the most obnoxious about it
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>>70052Yeah, a few years ago I was chronically online and in weird edgy clittycel and borderline 'dist communities because of my childhood issues and isolation but I've tried moving onto self improvement stuff and being less online.
I've been feeling a good amount better recently
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>>70057I am just not sure if I love foids or moids tho, its so weird, or I just want love
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>>70059Not for me being not online because I literally cant I am internet addict + programmer
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I am questioning my orientation tbh but not*(not now) in fag way(supporting LGBTQ or leftie ideas, more to militant style yukop mishima o algo)
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I am hitting 19 in few Month And I dont know what profession I am interested, I dont think I have identity , something special, just sitting and scrolling through internet, doing assignments (With less efforts because I dont care my professors are retards as My college)I got my driver license tho, one good thing in my life
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>>70070Means I am not sure who I am
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>>70072Its hard sometimes
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>>70115I did not said that shit
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>>70068You should really go outside and exercise, it will make you feel way better, internet addiction is a massive issue
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>>70150Cant say that, there is heterosexual who is flexible too(I did SNCA research on that)
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>>70152I know, but my self esteem and insecurity and internet addiction are really bad + retard professors in college who give assignments and I stress the fuck out
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>>70164I dont like calling myself those labels "gay" "bi" they are all degenerate and part of LGBTQ+. Its much deeper I think, in spiritual and emotional level
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>>70166So yeah Like I am not like that
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I'm 17 and I've literally never had any friends.
In school I just sat in the corner and read books or think about shiet
you can just try and not think about stuff sometimes I would just stare at the ceiling for hours when I got home
I've never felt sad or lonely for some reason
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>>70189Uhh maybe cause you are autistic or what
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>>70189I was never social at school because I hated school at its environment, now I dont know what to do because stress + feeling of loneliness
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>>70200I feel like people dont understand me
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fuck my life
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>>70278GEG this is such a fucked up reply
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>>70278its a woman retard
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>>70279yesah like no actual advice
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>>70288No he's a beautiful twink
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>>70295No its not fuggen troon. Its le aryan based anime girl from Hellsing or somrthins
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Fuggen hate retards where the normal answers
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>>70300Do you look like that doe?
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>>70316Good advice, I will try, but idk what my goals in life. I try to do programming and shit but this courwse is too intense. Also, because I am 18 and go to college I need more responsibility which I lack, my mom didnt teach me a fucking thing to prepare for real life (expect for driving and other small shit)
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>>70332I hope so, but no. I have a lot of body hair and harsh hair on my head like hedgehog
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>>70316good work and nice advice
i'm not op but i have been dealing with some rough doubts
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>>70339Yeah, I agree (I am op)
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I hope I will improve tho, not fuck up with small time drugs to boost my energy(amphetamine). I am just really fucked up
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>>70395You just seem like you have autism and are lonely honestly
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>>70405Idk about autism, I have OCD tho as I said. Cant say U am autists becaus I didnt notice because I dont act like autist
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>>70415most people are normies and do not understand the deeper of philosophy or meaning of life so talking to them is exhausting
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>>70433Not emo but not normie and spergy OCD guy
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>>70531Are you retarded or yes
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>>70551Obsessed ESL faggot above me
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>>70556Skinny ESL nigger eat my seed
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>>70560Obsessed jet faggot wants my BWC
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>>70563We jets have massive cocks for you
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>>70565GTFO of this thread jeet
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I am so fucking miserable
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>>69757 (OP)fuck off from my gay board foid
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>>70674Well I was from caucasus region post soviet but now I am In muttmerica
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>>70681People adviced me go to the gym and your life would be better, but I am not sure because I consume internet and I am all in that bullshit about women that I cant trust no one anymore
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>>70681churka or rusmutt?
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>>70683>>70683Turkic churka(not turkish, do not confuse turkic with turkish)
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>>70671>>70682We gave you advice, now do it instead of making excuses
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I just wanna talk
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>>70774'tok picture nigga
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>>70789'tokGODs own you lil vro
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I just want to talk :(
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>>70800How I am obsessed?You are the only retard here
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>>70804>How I am obsessed? You are the only retard heremissed a space
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>>70833
Nusois what is this… 🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀
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>>70836Geg deleted them all
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>>70807Ohnonononononooooonnooo what is this, soy9kslvttas?