/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

Not related to my early childhood, but i almost got groomed by a nazi femboy when i was 14. he was always babbling and obsessing over jews, muslims and troons while literally talking like one too. his argumentative rhetorik was so simple and infantile that he must've been manipulating me by adapting simple talking points for cacas to understand. ironically he bragged about being heckin gifted. he studied phisics and he also was good at coding. he then managed to get my IP for some reason and then asked me if i wanna meet up. i said yes because i was depressed and i thought if he wanted to kill me, he should just do that and if not i finally had someone to talk to. win win if you wanna put it that way. Suddenly he began to spam weird shit like "that i should get in his free candy van" this scared me so i just stalled time till he just gave up and drove home. thereupon i just ignored him, later even reported him to the police. i still don't know what he wanted from me and i don't know what would've happened if we really met up that day

>>69479
thats horrible, that person was probably a 'c0rd fodist/09a faggot he wouldve done unspeakable things, they(satanist groups) are known for kidnapping kids irl and doing unspeakable things to them

>>69479
you are very lucky to not have ended up meeting the 'cord satanist fag

>>69479
Holy shit, you were gonna get raped

>>69478 (OP)
my mother tried to kill me one time

my dad also beats my mom and i can see bruises on het legs and arms a lot but my mom has also beaten my dad and tried to kill him in the past too so it even outs i think

I try to forget about all of this but it always comes back

>>69478 (OP)
My deadbeat dad used to hit me and shame me
My mum constantly guilt tripped and judged me, and she kept making me switch schools so I found it harder and harder to make friends

in 3rd grade i got bullied so bad that a group of girls tried to poison me by putting cleaning products in my water bottle

I was sexually assaulted by an older girl at Church when I was 10. After this I would get the shakes whenever anyone touched me and I would start to cry when women touched me. I hated being around them and I tried to avoid them. Luckily, time has passed but I still carry a hatred towards women that I find hard to remove.

>>69478 (OP)
Im still young but around when i was 13 years old 2022ish femboys in this melee fighting game’s discord exposed me to femboy porn and since then ive been extremely fucked up, im still attracted to women i know this because i have a crush on one right now. Anything that is related to femboys and or trannies or really degenerates in general i have an extremely deep rancorous resentment. I will never forgive them and sometimes i think about murdering someone out of pure rage.
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Story two my mother has been doing hard cocaine and drugs since this summer and only me and my father know about it, and there is no easy way of telling anyone about it. She asks me my brother and father for money constantly, to the point of threatening my father for divorce if she doesnt get the money (my mom is a neet, because of a rare disease she has)
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There is probably a number of other things i forgot as well feel far from normal. Part of this might just be because of how i was born, or something.

>>69604
I can relate to your deep hatred of troons and femboys as I deal with the exact same thing towards women. I feel nothing but pure loathing which cannot be sated.

>>69603
did she get arrested or anything?

>>69617
No she was never arrested for any of this. I was ten years old and had basically no understanding about the things she did to me other than them making me very uncomfortable. I never told anyone because she told me "we had to keep it secret" and like I said I didn't fully understand it. I stopped going to that church years ago so I have no idea what she's up to now. The only reason I would ever track her down would probably be to rape her even though that will never happen and is just a revenge fantasy.

I have a cleft lip/palate with a deviated septum and ppl always ask if i'm Jewish. its traumatic bc I am an Aryan pureblood

>>69619
Murder her seriously

>>69478 (OP)
I'd hallucinate voices, people and my surroundings as a kid
I didn't know I did at the time and though all of it was 100% real, sometimes it would be nasty (like screaming at me telling me to kill myself, or falling into an infinitely deep sinkhole) or just odd
I had an imaginary friend which was a T-rex (because I thought they were cool) which looked nothing like one and would give me life advice that went totally over my head, I'd only meet him if it was 'dark' in a 'cave', I'm now certain it wasnt dark and there was no cave whatsoever
while visiting my grandmother I hallucinated going to a part of town and visiting shops that I later learned never existed, there I picked up an old coin off the street without telling her, I still have it.

As I got older they started getting less bad though, but I still sometimes doubt whether what I see is real or not

>>69777
suffah mutt

>>69777
>on the bright side his pp is now normal hahahahah
imagine how hard a kike would laugh when he reads this
humanity is so fucking retarded

>>69777
Jesus fucking Christ the first image. How can you see your infant like this and think this is normal? That baby looks like it has mentally left our world.

>>69478 (OP)
Several such occasions
Almost drowned at 7 years old, although it only made me develop a discomfort from being in murky water, it didnt make me fear swimming in pools and such
At 8 years old i still had phimosis because i had normal parents who didnt want my dick mutilated, so my mom filled a basin with hot water, put it in the bathroom and told me to go in and try to stretch it out. I did succeed, but the moment my phimosis got torn was the most painful moment of my life at that point.
At 12 years old I got groomed by a 16 year old girl at school, probably because i had early puberty. It didnt get any further than her groping me several times, and when i threatened to tell the principal about it she stopped bothering me
The most traumatic event happened at 14 years. I was taking a walk on a winter day and i saw a man about 40 meters in front of me start to twitch, probably from a seizure. Since the sidewalk was covered in ice, the man tried his absolute hardest to control himself and get to the ground slowly. I ran towards him but when i was 10 meters away he twitched so hard that he fell back and cracked his skull on ice. I called the ambulance but when they arrived the paramedics said that hes already dead and theres nothing they can do, so they put the guy in a body bag and just drove away like nothing happened.

>>70103
holy shit dude that last one is insane

>>69777
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>>70082
deplorable abuse, child mutilation at this scale to this day is beyond retarded

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>>69777
i got circumsized by a jew even though my shit family is goy…

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>>69845
Marge what was it

>>71132
screencaps of women gloating about how they got their kids circumsized + baba's face before (happy, aryan) and after ('nished, goycattled)

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Nusois get molested by women oh no no no no not like this

>nusoigloombas have dysfunctional families
nusoi i'm sorry i treated you so harshly

>>71326
i think you're alright big nigger lips GOD

>>69478 (OP)
No single incident fucked me up so idk if I qualify. My parents were crazy, I never knew if my dad actually loved me, my mother does but she's too fucked up herself to have properly taken care of me as a child, i hardly had friends as a child, and the ones I did never respected me. I'm a hateful little chud now, recently my friendships fell apart , not because of me but because of their own issues, and I don't know what to do.

But I suppose if I had to say, extremely unstable relationships with literally everyone in my life, friends, family and whatnot. I'm still bad at being emotionally stable at the age of 19. I freak out, I think my friends hate me, I don't trust them, but I can't go to them about it. The amount of shit ive gone through on my own about them, without them even knowing, is amazing. I hate being like this. Thanks mom, thanks dad, thanks Australian culture. Fuck this shithole country.

>>71328
I relate to this alot
Ig I had a more normal childhood but my parents also werent that great. Anyway what happened to me was that i lost all my friends when i moved to another country. When i moved there I was 11 and it took a long before i started going to school and the time I spent without basically any friends and playing games all day really fucked me up socially. Also i didnt know the language and when i started going to school i was put in a program for learning the language. There i found people to hang out with but they werent really my friends and we stopped talking after i went to another class. My class didnt like me but i slowly found the friendgroup i have today. They treated me like shit but they were the only friends i had and i spent my whole middle school years with them.
>I freak out, I think my friends hate me, I don't trust them, but I can't go to them about it
I used to be like this alot but ive finally moved to not caring too much about them and im trying to be more content alone and trying to find new friends in different places.
>The amount of shit ive gone through on my own about them, without them even knowing, is amazing.
This too.

I got groomed and touched by an older "friend" when i was nine and he also conivned me to have sex with him among other things. Because of this (and my manipulative and abusive parents) I have a really fucked up perception of the world which I cannot completly change. This, in turn led to me having legal problems in high school because of my outbursts and self hatred. Being turbo autistic(high functioning albiet) and self-aware doesn't help either.

>>71444
holy original shit

I don't know if I can point to a single instance but covid and my middle school years after it really fucked me up. I hated my life, I had no friends, no contact with the outside world outside of school, I desperately wanted to ack myself and almost did multiple times. I got over it but man, I hate those years

>>73423
similar. It was a horrendous time to be dealing with trauma because I had no place/people to healthily ooz the pain. resulted in me being 100% stunted

>>71328
As an Aussie I can also relate to hating this shit culture we have. Basically every "friend" I've ever had until 2 years ago insulted me and harassed me and when I retaliate or insult them back they get pissy and say they were just joking. I hate this culture of "taking the piss" where its normalised to harass your friends and bully random people because your not being serious and if they get mad its actually their fault because they couldn't take a joke. Also I feel like over here people are really aggressive to where people get into fights over nothing and people swear in almost every sentence.

>>69479
Same except my mom keeps forcing me to go to school even though i turned 18

>>69478 (OP)
are you ever going to tell us what you did?
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my childhood wasnt that fucked up really except for when i got introduced to porn at 12 yrs old. otherwise its snca

I saw 'p when I was 11 years old on a now deleted social media. I'm normal and never became a pedo or whatever but I just remember seeing it and feeling that something about it was incredibly wrong even doe I was a caca and didn’t really understand what was going on

>>74457
me too, except i saw it when i was six years old

>>69478 (OP)
I was homeschooled where from ages 14 or 15 to 21 I wasn’t allowed to leave the house, talk to peers or (especially) women. Since both my parents worked and were gone often I was isolated for prolonged periods of time during my adolescence.

I still think about that shit even now at 23. The years I lost and how I will be behind my peers perpetually never cease to spur on my suicidal thoughts

When my brother rubbed my chest and pressed his groin against mine. I was nine and he was in his early twenties. A couple years later he tried to excuse what he did on the weed after I confronted him about it.

Just gonna vent real quick but it sucks that him and I still live under the same roof. The mere presence of this dude sickens me, not just for what he did to me simply, but because he's disgustingly evil in general. I mean him being a pedo should already prove it, but to put it simply: Paranoid, lying and manipulative control freak who can never escape his illiterate reasoning due to his narcissistic and emotional impulses. My mom sides with his ridiculous paranoia (such as the classic freaking out on anyone who leaves the curtain window SLIGHTLY open, immediately despising our neighbors without getting to know them, accusing my dad of being a trafficker without evidence etc) due to her stockholm syndrome. My other siblings are too ignorant, one too autistic, to see through his true nature, however I could see them gaining awareness when they get older. How much longer must I take this?

>>74586
He's really proved to me how dead inside he was when he laughed at my mother crying. When he admitted he'd slice a toddler with a machete if they were to walk in to our house for "self defense". When he fakes getting mad at me or my siblings for fun (which is so fucking weird but we knew he was being preformative since he'd act movie-like). I could keep going on and on about the shit he does. He's so exhausting to deal with, it feels like walking on eggshells to be around him. He will never change man.

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>>74587
murder is an option.
>I was nine and he was in his early twenties
Half-brothers? thats a big gap

i was homeschooled from 12-16, i lived in a rural area and i couldn't see any friends if i had them anyway, my family was poor, i never owned anything, my mother was a abusive alcoholic. (thats the easy way to put it, she was much worse) and i lived completely alone for the four years i was homeschooled and isolated. (the first 12 were also hell living with my abusive mom)

its left me fucked up, when i had to go to school to do a in-person test i was shaking just because people were around me. i hate myself and feel like my life has already been pissed away. i resent everyone else who got to live a better life than me. im possibly schizophrenic and bipolar, just thinking about this shit will make me scream "FUCK" or mood swing to become depressed.

im a little better now, being around people doesn't make me shake uncontrollably. still alone though. still can't ever shake the feeling that i missed the entirety of my adolescent years, one of the only possible path's for me now looks like suicide. (most likely by christ church)

i hope the other chuddies here are doing better, though