â„–68974[Quote]
I'm a porn addict, it's slowly devolved more and more through the years…
Yes bnwo unironically… I own a chastity cage, i've given hundreds of dollars at once to onlyfans women.
Last night, I blew over $400 dollars, and finished in a way I don't even want to say, but it involves my chastity cage.
I broke down in tears afterwards, immensely worse regret than I usually get. I opened my bible, I prayed, I felt better going to bed. I already feel myself being pulled back to this disgusting horrible self-destructive stuff today. I felt compelled to reach out to God, but today the feeling is absent.
I've heard faith isn't about a "feeling", it's about knowing, or something like that, but I can't seem to make it stick, even when I have moments like I did last night.
What to do? I've taken some practical steps to try and help, but I want to reach God, and let him into me, and if part of me secretly doesn't want to find him, and know him, and wants to continue my sinning, especially my sins of lust, I need his help to crush that part of me.
Even last night, despite feeling better afterwards, the prayer still felt like I was thinking thoughts into the void. I reached for a bible, expecting to have some moment where I would open a random page and be given a quote exactly perfect for my situation, but alas not, but I did read it for maybe 10 minutes, mainly psalms.
â„–68977[Quote]
>>68974 (OP)I know he died for all sins, I know he knew my sins and still sacrificed himself, I know I am not beyond saving, but I can't seem to produce the faith, at least not for an extended amount of time…
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>>68974 (OP)could have been high effort bait but just AI generated brimstone
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>>68978This is real, I need spiritual help, I can't defeat my lust alone
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>>68978Ai wouldnt generate it for being too suggestive or inappropriate
>>68979What do u during the day? It seems you're a very bored person with too much time on your hands to develop such a porn addiction, being able to watch porn all day means you have a lot of time, why dont u do productive stuff all day and be a busy person
â„–68981[Quote]
>>68980i have been taking strides to cut my screen time, i've been reading a lot more, got through 5 albeit short books in the past 2 weeks genuinely, trying drawing, getting into nature. The impulse is everywhere, I can go on my phone, see my web browser's app icon, and instantly feel pulled to open up onlyfans.
On my days at work when I have essentially zero time to use my PC, I've found myself scrolling onlyfans in my breaks.
I do workout, I hit the gym every other day (mitigating circumstances aside of course), i've been eating healthier the last few months, dropping excess weight too.
The worst part is, I actually have a girlfriend, a great girlfriend, she's a virgin, I don't want her to be weirded out her first time, or have me struggling to cum due to lack of stimulation because I'm fried by porn.
But as soon as the seed of the idea of doing it gets into my head it's almost always too late. I've tried sitting, observing the urge for a few minutes till it passes, i've tried imagining wholesome scenes such as holding hands and kissing my gf, sometimes these help the urges, but when the urge appears there's a good chance these methods will totally go out of my head.
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>>68980also ive tried other things, i have a guitar, most days I will just ignore it and not pick it up, not that im good at it or ever have been,
sometimes I watch shows with my friends, im don't know what else I could really be doing
â„–68983[Quote]
>is doing better than most people on this board
>is also a gigacoomer with zero self control
How did you even get to this point? I see no other way than this being fake ai sloppa
â„–68984[Quote]
Fucking retard quote adding random supersages
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Lol just get a grip theres no other advice to give you youre a normie
â„–68986[Quote]
>>68983I genuinely don't know how it's still sticking around.
I used to be an alcoholic (now I drink rarely and in moderation), I used to be a stoner (I haven't smoked weed in about a year and a half now), I used to smoke A LOT (cigarettes, i'm still partial to a cigar maybe once a year, for special occasions like weddings), I've kicked them all, but my porn addiction genuinely I can't seem to kick.
â„–68987[Quote]
Do christcucks really?
â„–68988[Quote]
Try easypeasy if you havent already
â„–68989[Quote]
>>68988I read it, I really did, I didn't skim it, I actually sat down and read it all, a lot of the stuff it says about "The stress from not fapping is only there because of the addiction monster in the first place" doesn't seem to have helped.
â„–68991[Quote]
>>68981>can go on my phone, see my web browser's app icon, and instantly feel pulled to open up onlyfans.Cut off tech expect for the sharty's r9k, or if u really want to u can quit all tech
The internet is so pornified that its impossible to not see anything suggestive even on the most normie safe parts of the net such as 'book and 'tube.
>I've found myself scrolling onlyfans in my breaks.why dont u talk or socialize with ur coworkers or read books
>>68982>im don't know what else I could really be doingTrying to earn more moeny, we all know our lives goals are to become extremely rich one day, so do side hustles from your laptop and stuff, not some bullshit andrew tate scam shit like dropshipping but genuine value to society like programming or building websites
â„–68992[Quote]
i know this is bait but for any gooner 'eens reading this, unironically have sex. having sex even once obliterated my porn consumption because you realize how fake and disgusting porn is compared to real life. unless you're jerking off to just pure fetish material like simpsons brap porn o algo that is so far removed from sex that only god can help you
â„–68993[Quote]
>>68991>why dont u talk or socialize with ur coworkers or read booksI do try and read, as for socialising, i'm aspie, i've by no means got the worst social skills but it's often hard or exhausting
â„–68995[Quote]
>>68989Didn't work for me either, I'm doing willpower method right now and its workingb well (I was never this deep in it doe(yes I know this is bait just in case it isnt doe))
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>>68995it's not bait
that being said, possible breakthrovgh may have just been discovered…
many have told me in the past about mindfulness and meditation, and i thought it was crap, adhd stopping me from keeping my eyes closed, constantly getting bored within like 15-30 seconds
(yes i have adhd it's real it's not just from years of frying dopamine with tech, porn, and other stuff, i was like this as a child when my computer and video game usage was heavily time restricted)
Only just maybe an hour ago been put onto aulm/aum/om meditating, absolute game changer, already since finding it thought "well guess i'll try" and next thing I knew 15 minutes flew by with zero boredom, then I pissed, and then I tried again, and passed 10 minutes, and then a third time, and 15 minutes again! This may be a good method to help me have better mental control, perhaps I should devise a method of doing it for a period of time, break to read scripture, before going again, repeat until i've spent perhaps an hour or so on it.
â„–68998[Quote]
allah tier bait
â„–69000[Quote]
>Yes bnwo unironically…
>finished in a way I don't even want to say, but it involves my chastity cage.
you slapped your balls with your 'ildo, didn't you?
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>>6900269000 is a get btw because i said so, okay chud?
â„–69014[Quote]
I hope that you recover from your porn addiction
, now get the fuck out of our site nigger
â„–69015[Quote]
>>69011>Making pdfs of posts instead of screenshots For HWAT purpose
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they said it was the blackest post on /r9k/…
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>>69015they made me giggle
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maybe one day I'll turn it into a kindle print-on-demand thingy
â„–69021[Quote]
>>68974 (OP)>I'm a porn addict, it's slowly devolved more and more through the years…>Yes bnwo unironically… I own a chastity cage, i've given hundreds of dollars at once to onlyfans women.>Last night, I blew over $400 dollars, and finished in a way I don't even want to say, but it involves my chastity cage.Do you have any traumas from childhood? Do you have any mental issues? Did you grow up in an abnormal environment as a child?
When the porn addiction is that deep and fucked up, im sure that person has deep insecurities,mental illness, self hatred and loneliness
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>>69000They call it "plapping"
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nusois will fall for this bait
â„–69030[Quote]
>I'm a porn addict, it's slowly devolved more and more through the years…
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>Yes bnwo unironically… I own a chastity cage, i've given hundreds of dollars at once to onlyfans women.
>
>Last night, I blew over $400 dollars, and finished in a way I don't even want to say, but it involves my chastity cage.
>
>I broke down in tears afterwards, immensely worse regret than I usually get. I opened my bible, I prayed, I felt better going to bed. I already feel myself being pulled back to this disgusting horrible self-destructive stuff today. I felt compelled to reach out to God, but today the feeling is absent.
>
>I've heard faith isn't about a "feeling", it's about knowing, or something like that, but I can't seem to make it stick, even when I have moments like I did last night.
>
>What to do? I've taken some practical steps to try and help, but I want to reach God, and let him into me, and if part of me secretly doesn't want to find him, and know him, and wants to continue my sinning, especially my sins of lust, I need his help to crush that part of me.
>
>Even last night, despite feeling better afterwards, the prayer still felt like I was thinking thoughts into the void. I reached for a bible, expecting to have some moment where I would open a random page and be given a quote exactly perfect for my situation, but alas not, but I did read it for maybe 10 minutes, mainly psalms.
originaliosdbjkhd
â„–69031[Quote]
>>69027>>68974 (OP)>>69000>mental illnessWhat is appealing? How do you faggots fill up a bin full of tissues with this shit? It's so fucking gay. Man.
â„–69034[Quote]
>I'm a porn addict, it's slowly devolved more and more through the years…
>
>Yes bnwo unironically… I own a chastity cage, i've given hundreds of dollars at once to onlyfans women.
>
>Last night, I blew over $400 dollars, and finished in a way I don't even want to say, but it involves my chastity cage.
>
>I broke down in tears afterwards, immensely worse regret than I usually get. I opened my bible, I prayed, I felt better going to bed. I already feel myself being pulled back to this disgusting horrible self-destructive stuff today. I felt compelled to reach out to God, but today the feeling is absent.
>
>I've heard faith isn't about a "feeling", it's about knowing, or something like that, but I can't seem to make it stick, even when I have moments like I did last night.
>
>What to do? I've taken some practical steps to try and help, but I want to reach God, and let him into me, and if part of me secretly doesn't want to find him, and know him, and wants to continue my sinning, especially my sins of lust, I need his help to crush that part of me.
>
>Even last night, despite feeling better afterwards, the prayer still felt like I was thinking thoughts into the void. I reached for a bible, expecting to have some moment where I would open a random page and be given a quote exactly perfect for my situation, but alas not, but I did read it for maybe 10 minutes, mainly psalms.
<ooaohjguhdhsohgousdfgohdfsohguohsdr
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Go back to xitter you fucking nigger
â„–69057[Quote]
If this thread is serious just goon to cosplay baddies thats what i do
â„–69065[Quote]
top 10 things that never happened
â„–69102[Quote]
Psyop yourself into becoming a seething nazi chud, you will have xtra reason not to goon because it's a jewish psyop meant to weaken the white race
Start with small steps, get away from degenerate gooning and force yourself to be a little bit more normal, and then once you are ok with that slowly deny yourself goon by distracting yourself with some other SNCA. My favourite is going outside for walks, especially in the rain
The more random impulsive shit you do to take your mind away from gooning whenever you get the impulse to goon the better
It won't be easy, it won't be fast, but it is for the betterment of yourself
If you're an autistcel, I recommend writing down some sort of plan on a paper for how you're slowly going to take yourself away from gooning, I strongly recommend this as trying to stop gooning full stop while being a full on gooner isn't going to work since your brain won't let it
Another apporach, is whenever you feel like gooning, blast yourself with 'cado, dnb or any other brimstone shock/gore. Honestly, i havent thought about this before, but you should edit your hostfile to point popular porn sites to screamer sites just to condition your brain into not wanting to go there
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>>69102>edit your hostfilehow do I do this?
â„–69218[Quote]
Post timestamped cage so we know its not bait o algo
â„–69221[Quote]
I ignored this originally because I thought it was a copypasta, but I realize there is a chance it is real, so I will say this:
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Your instinct to read scripture when faced with temptation is correct. Especially the Psalms.
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Prayer is your best friend and greatest weapon against sexual temptation. No matter what further action you take, always keep prayer in your heart. As scripture commands us, pray without ceasing.
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The scripture also commands us to flee from sin. You can take this literally, and physically remove yourself from what is tempting you. This means leaving your computer, taking a walk, etc. I would also say going to bed early is also a way to do this. Nothing good happens after dark, try to keep up with a good sleep schedule.
<
It seems like you are trying to reach God by yourself. I advise that you go to Church and seek counsel from a spiritual father. The Bible is a great tool, but it's effect can be minimal without participating in the Body of Christ on Earth, the Church.
God bless you brother, I will pray for you.
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>I ignored this originally because I thought it was a copypasta, but I realize there is a chance it is real, so I will say this:
><
>Your instinct to read scripture when faced with temptation is correct. Especially the Psalms.
><
>Prayer is your best friend and greatest weapon against sexual temptation. No matter what further action you take, always keep prayer in your heart. As scripture commands us, pray without ceasing.
><
>The scripture also commands us to flee from sin. You can take this literally, and physically remove yourself from what is tempting you. This means leaving your computer, taking a walk, etc. I would also say going to bed early is also a way to do this. Nothing good happens after dark, try to keep up with a good sleep schedule.
><
>It seems like you are trying to reach God by yourself. I advise that you go to Church and seek counsel from a spiritual father. The Bible is a great tool, but it's effect can be minimal without participating in the Body of Christ on Earth, the Church.
>
>God bless you brother, I will pray for you. BRAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
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>>I ignored this originally because I thought it was a copypasta, but I realize there is a chance it is real, so I will say this:
>><
>>Your instinct to read scripture when faced with temptation is correct. Especially the Psalms.
>><
>>Prayer is your best friend and greatest weapon against sexual temptation. No matter what further action you take, always keep prayer in your heart. As scripture commands us, pray without ceasing.
>><
>>The scripture also commands us to flee from sin. You can take this literally, and physically remove yourself from what is tempting you. This means leaving your computer, taking a walk, etc. I would also say going to bed early is also a way to do this. Nothing good happens after dark, try to keep up with a good sleep schedule.
>><
>>It seems like you are trying to reach God by yourself. I advise that you go to Church and seek counsel from a spiritual father. The Bible is a great tool, but it's effect can be minimal without participating in the Body of Christ on Earth, the Church.
>>
>>God bless you brother, I will pray for you. BRAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
>HERM. IM SO MUCH SMARTER. THANK GOD FOR ME BEING AN ATHEIST
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>>69102Your last point is an actual practice in some forms of Buddhism but I somehow imagine it won't actually work
>>69221this is true
â„–70505[Quote]
>>68974 (OP)op here, had 6 days clean after posting, relapsed, now 4 days clean again; even at this state clearly a huge improvement.
A lot of times ive been at the point where i'd start snowballing I got some kinda intrustive thought countering the intrusive swelling of horniness that comes in the early days of trying to quit porn. I'd get super horny, then my mind would snap into some phrase like "You're gonna fail again (NAME) but you know who can make sure you don't." I want to believe this is the Holy Spirit.
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>>70505Also I deleted my onlyfans account. And i've finally put enough different things on my phone to block access to porn sites that it genuinely takes like 4 minutes if i wanted to turn them all of so it actually basically stops me before I can snowball too far
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>>70506>>70505good luck mate
â„–70532[Quote]
>>69221OP, do this. I recommend you googling and finding out where an Orthodox church is near you and attending the divine liturgy on sunday. Start small. When you get the chance, talk to your priest about how you should go forward with your journey.
<Also sidenote, if you look to the lives of the saints, this is the most consistent way of setting yourself free from sin. Its not easy, but its the only thing that trvly works.
<I also thought i was too far gone. I constantly relapse but now im consistently repenting everytime i fall. Ive still got a long way to go, but im slowly but surely getting there.
<Also, that little voice in your head telling you to pick up your Bible and repent is the Holy Spirit. This means you arent too far gone, and when you run back to Christ He will accept you with open arms. He loves you and wants the best for you.
<Also if you havent already, i would throw away the chastity cage and any other gooning "tools". (Mark 9:43)
<Im praying for you 'teen. God be with you.
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>>70540why are giggers like this bros?
â„–70646[Quote]
>>70592Explain why I'm wrong doe