â„–976492[Quote]
how it feels like to slowly force yourself more and more until you become the most insufferable faggot in the entire sphere. ive been lurking for years and watching you guys have fun while i just sit and watch and just read you. nobody cared who i was until i started 'fagging everywhere. and now NOBODY STILL CARES GUYOOOOGEKKKKKKKKK but thats fine. I'm fucking sigma nigga. now is my time to shine. and it wont be today. but some other day, you guys are gonna see me again and i wont be so retarded, no, im gonna lock in. i used to actually sweat through my armpits before i used to post, literally from how anxious i was before i interacted with you for the first time. my heart used to beat so fast and id feel faint on my first posts. but now i dont have to be scared of you. i can say whatever i want and youre just gonna read it anyways right. or even if you dont, thats fine with me, ill just write more script that other people will read, and I talk a lot. I talk a whole lot. i talk so much more than a person needs to talk and i know it REEKS. i know im the worst person here and im just a self absorbed piece of shit who never has these hecking wholesome threads where saar yaar so fuggen serious and genuinely talk about feelings. do I actually care to improve myself? no, ill do this until i die. im actually okay with the fact my mom raped me when I was a little kid. low fucking key man, low fucking key my nigga. and so what? youre gonna hate me because i dont give a shit that my mom raped me cause if it was you youd be mindbroken for me it was just another day. i scream into a fat fucking log of shit that curdles me like fucking cheese yah we all know. we all know that im weird im retarded i get it. but heres the thing. im not like anybody else. i know you know that. you must love me deep down. you probably wont even read this, whoever you are. but lowkey what the FUCK would you do if i actually started caring? im actually applying for meth online, soon I'm lowkey gonna be addicted to stimulants. I already do stimulants everyday to make myself feel like the rest of you. so what's gonna happen when I finally get over myself and start talking all the time? I can type giant paragraphs like this and it takes me no effort whatsoever, and if it doesn't land, if nobody even reads it hey I'll just do it again and again. And eventually you're gonna give me attention. And even if it's not today, I'm already prepping your mind to give me Attention in the future. Sure I have bpd, okay who cares, I'm literally mentally ill and probably a future niggercow who belongs in a ward but point being guesss what im NOT at the ward anymore im NOT going back im NOT suicidal you CANNOT make me go back. im here until i die. fuck you. spongie out
â„–976499[Quote]
>i used to actually sweat through my armpits before i used to post, literally from how anxious i was before i interacted with you for the first time. my heart used to beat so fast and id feel faint on my first posts
same lol
â„–976501[Quote]
>>976492 (OP)hey guys sorry im an insufferable faggot who was bullied as a child this is my coping mechanism
â„–976502[Quote]
why do you need to force yourself when a few people already like you