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And guess what platform it happened on that I have since deleted and never went back to. Here's the thing at least, I feel strange about it. I don't know, I just feel strange. Today I've been thinking about it a lot. I'm subject to a lot of rumination so whenever I think about things I think about things a lot and they pop into my brain randomly and I always just keep typing about it and I can't stop talking or even thinking about it. I was watching Every Youtube Predator Explained and I just started thinking and stuff. And I was like, wow, that really happened. Usually I can't remember things and I don't even know why I would let that happen to me. But it's kinda crazy. I don't want to talk about it. This is probably going to be my last post here. Not that anybody cares GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG. But seriously. Seriously? Fuck!

Has this happened to anybody else? How does this affect you? Have you changed? Do you feel weird too? Also I'm just fucking around I don't really care about it anymore. But it's so strange. I just think it's really strange. I just think it's really weird. I just think it's super fucking strange. It just has me feeling weird. I just feel odd. I used to be super obsessed with the SCP foundation when I was a kid. I used to think it was real and I would stop myself from viewing the SCP-001 page because I thought the memetic kill hazard was real. I remember my mom cuddling me after our dad had one of those apology video ahh moments and threw a tantrum and left and there was no man in the house except for me and she cuddled me and she wouldn't let me go and she said you remind me of [my dad] and the lights were off and it was dark and it felt like time couldn't pass and time just kinda blurred into each other and I couldn't really do anything and I was just there and every second just kinda wound up fucking into every second and groping into more seconds and I felt gross and things turned into more things and I felt really weird and that's another time I felt really weird. Skin on skin. And she's not even that good looking. It made me feel really sick. And I get really angry thinking about it. Cause I don't want your presents. I don't even want your presents. So stop it. Leave me alone. My dad came back and everything went back to how things were and nobody talked about it.

Aside from that, my dad made us watch every single marvel movie. He also used to be a brony. My dad used to talk about rainbow dash and twilight sparkle and all that kind of stuff when I was a kid, and taunting me with it, because I thought it was "gay" to like mlp and stuff like that and I was really disgusted by things that seemed "gay" and "womanly" and I wanted to avoid things that were "girly" because it felt like they could "leak" onto me and make me feel weird too. He went to Afghanistan when I was born and returned shortly after I gained sapience for the first time. He was very strange once. Very very strange. At least stranger than he is now.

Has things like this ever happened to you guys? Have you ever felt like this too?

Let me know down below. As always I love you guys.