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>>948788nigga gets raped by cloudflare on the daily ✌️
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ngl i made this thread cuz my girlfriend dumped me on valentines rn. she said not to talk to her until i get sober. i just told her to fuck off and then i closed the door in her face. not even hard. lightly. and she got fucking pissed and told me never to come back. so here i am. i just got off work too and i bought the biggest vodka i can find. usually its one thing or another. nootropics. thc edibles. mushrooms. kratom. kava barhopping, and meeting the lads to play trivia night or whatever else. anything i can get my hands on. everything we have work parties i always have wine. if they dont have wine i have beer. if i dont have beer, i already had drank liquid heroin before that in the form of kratom. if i didnt already vomitted at the party, i just did.
at least i dont smoke? she doesnt seem to agree though. anything and everything i do seems bad in her eyes. i mean shes has a couple of beers before, she gets the male impulse in some way. so how come im getting fucking ostrafied like christopher moltisanti? how the fuck am i constantly dragged down by the stone like Dogs? how come its moderately-to-lightly funny that my ass is still on fire? paraplegic inhuman liar? and for the record, she's asian, maybe that's why. I don't know. Fucking valentine's day too. She was gonna leave me on Christmas too. Some women just love to see you down. Not me though. I'm way too autistic to even tell. Seriously, I'm way too focused on my autistic internet ocs to even tell that I could have sprouted birth nurture foster to a child, fuck, helltakershitskin 2? There's a sequel? Hell no, I could never be a dad. That's why I said I was infertile.
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And what the worst part is? At work nobody even respects me anymore. Get this, I'm a bank teller, right? So that means I get to wear this fucking, fancy, kick-ass suit. That sounds fucking great right?
Yeah, you think it'd be great and everything, but that's only a half-truth. See, the thing is, when I get bored at work, I bring my briefcase right? You'd see me and think to expect some important ass SCP foundation ass documents in there. Maybe your social security number among some illegible corporate verbiage that stuffs your asshole like fucking bi-curious slither.io, the big guy on the leaderboard, I wear a suit and I'm like the gman. Doesn't help I look more like chud, but that's besides the point.
Anyhow, I constantly draw furries at work. Well not furries. Okay fine but I'm not a furry. But it's just something really cute that I like drawing. Furries just come so easily to me so I just draw a bunch in my shitty fucking artstyle that everyone seems to hate. The thing is though, my coworkers have picked up on this. At first I hid it from them, like a playful secret that would lead to divorce, but over time, I got more and more comfortable. Soon enough? They RAPE me with their eyes. They look at me and they're like, "hey, helltaker guy, you fucking suck, I thought you were weird, but like, quirky, but I didn't expect THIS" and now they're like, in that weird horrible stage of human shamefulness where they don't even acknowledge me anymore. That's the worst kind. I wish I was being bullied or made fun of or something. But no, in 2026 niggers will just, stare you down, and they'll just be disappointed. Sometimes my own siblings at home treat me the same thing cause they hear me making youtube videos or something. All and all it feels like the line is taut, and I'm fucked overall. I'm climbing down SSRI's too, and no that's not like HRT or anything, you sicko. And guess what? Blah blah blah. Yadda yadda yadda. Snca snca snca. This may-indeed-be shit that absolutely, nobody, NOBODY, in their raisin-picking mind may care about. But I could go on and on and on and personally, it feels a little easier. One time my mom diddled me. See! Just like that. AND THAT MAKES ME BETTER THAN FUCKING CIRCUS TWO AT LEAST. No offense to the bunny man with the shiny teeth, I've talked to him on one occasion, he's nice, but the point still stands. Love was really gone! Like the fucking song! Jeezus! AND THE WORST PART IS THAT MY MOM DIDDLED A fiddle and what do you know about riddles and everything i kiddle with you you think mymomtouchedmewheniwasalittlekidanditscausemydadwasgoneandshethoughtiwasmydivorceddadandtheygotbacktogetherbutidistinctivelyrememberyousoundjustlikedad
AND THE WORST PART IS……….BOOM….LIGHTNING…..THUNDER…….MOODY……SCIENCE CLUDS OF WATER THAT HOLD CALCIUM IN THEM AND ON THAT CLACIUM WAS A FARM AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU HATE AND EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE AND THE WORST PART?
MY GIRLFRIEND DUMPED ME FOR A BLACK GUY.
Yeah I said it, and she's never-ever-in-forever-ever coming back. She DUMPED me. For bbc? And for what? Because I'm too autistic? No girl. I don't NEED you. Yes, I don't even NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED. I don't NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED. And you just remind me of my mom anyways. But my dad is way worse though do you know why? He took us to see every marvel movie so far. Yeah. When I said evil, you were probably like, oh he's not that evil. NO. He's a normie. MY DAD'S A NORMIE. Which is so bad, plus he tortured me military style when I was a baby. He was deployed to Afghanistan, I think he met the punisher from that one netflix marvel show. Anyways point being my first memory was somebody knocking down my tower. I got so angry I punched myself in the face for the first time. My girlfriend dumped me FOR STYRONE, THATS THE STYROFOAM VERSION OF TYRONE. And the worst thing is? I'm hispanic.
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>>948795YOU KNOW WHAT. I JUST REMEMBERED. I DON'T EVEN LIKE HELLTAKER. I JUST AVATARFAG TO HONOR THE OTHER GUY WHO DOESN'T POST HERE ANYMORE WHO USED TO AVATARFAG WITH LOREMASTER ALL THE TIME. JESUS CHRIST.
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>>948796Nigga if I were you I would guess that’s it
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>>948797You are the most interesting person on this board.
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>>948799but tHATS THE THING,. MAYBE THE WORLD WANTS ME TO QUIT. MAYBE THE WORLD WANTS ME TO DSTAND DOWN. MAYBE THE WORLD WANTS ME TO TAKE IT LIKE A LITTLE BITCH. MAYBE THE WORLD WANTS ME TO JUST KNEEL DOWN AND FUCKING SUCK ITS GIANT FUCKING THROBBING VEINY JUICY LITTLE FUCKING COCK AND PITY IT BY S PITTING ON IT AND SUCKING IT DRY., BUT I SAY NO. IM NOT GONNA DO THAT. IM NOT GONNA STAND DOWN. IM NOT GONNA SUCK YOUR COCK. WHY? BECAUSE IM NOT A FAGGOT LIKE YOU. IM NOT A FUCKING LOSER LIKE YOU. IM NOT GONNA LOSE TO A BUNCH OF MADE UP FUCKING FABRICS DTIED TOGETHER WITH KNEAD AND STICK AND ALL SORTS OF LEADEN THINGS AND WOVEN TOGETHER WITH YARN AND HUMAN HAIR AND TAPPED TOGETHER LIKE THEN AGAIN–THE EASY BUTTON. no im NOT gonna DO THAT.
It's so easy to committ suicide nowaydays and I genuinely LOATHE people who do. Because that's your own fucking body???? wHy?????? when yuou can just have sex or do something else. theres no reason for the pleasure to end too, just because you want to pain to end? what the fuck? and do you know what kind of people actaully kys? troons. literal fucking troons only troons kys. Keep that in mind, chad, next time you even CONSIDER such a thing, IF you do, because only weak people do. I myself am not so fortunate because I was born with an overactive amyglada or however the fuck its spelled and I got cortisol in my fucking dick throbbing until I'm fuckjing choking where until my mom fucking diddles me again. And you wanna know the worst part about all of this? My mom cheated on my dad with a black guy.
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>>948786 (OP)what about ss13
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Not a freudian slip. Sorry I'm just been weird. I'm not like that
>>948803I love it. It's a really great game.
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>>948804What do you love about it?
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Oh man I just realized I've been so busy high I forgot to cut my finger nails. At least my BGODF IM SO FUCKING SLEEPY NOW. oKAY THE POINT is I've been trying to say, my parents never taught me how to shower. I had to learn from google gemini. hygeine is hard cause you gotta do it everyday. call me disgusting.
>>948806I love how silly it is and how people just hang out and do roleplay things. I've always loved roleplay since I was a little kid I used to play like roblox roleplay games. I used to pretend I was a little ghost and I loved haunting people and watching them from afar and kinda creping up to them and making scary little chat mesasges or leaving behind sayings or messing up their art projects so it had blood eyes like zalgo. My point is I just like having fun with my fellow 2004cels who grew up the same that I did which is in a house of dogs where my mom had a favorite dog, it was a little maltese that had choclate in its guts and when it died it shat all over its cage and my mom was like wahhh wahhh wahhh im a crying bitch who misses a stupid fucking uglyt dog and my point is, wel, i guess what i have to say, i was playing monkey guy, aka doing experiments with the monkeysd. additionally i did some works on the slimes as well, and I just wanted to create a monster that could kill and terrorize the ship and kill everybody on it. I wanted to create a slime that was big and just rapes people and maybe steals their chase credit card, i got the slate edge and its great, low interest and id recommend it all. thats what i love about it. sorry if im a little off topic. e.e
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>>948802Dude your Latinx and everyone you love is BLQCKED
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>>948804What the fuck are those fingernails nigga got the Halo Reach EVA helmet fingernails
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>>948807helltaker sisa do you love my german friend REALB
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oh right i frogot i destroyed the nail clipper yesterday i accidentally broke it and i threw it away cuz it was rusty and i could get that fucking rust virus from it
>>948811ayyyyyyyyyy
>>948812WHAT. goddamnit i hate being a NIGGER. everyone i love always loves nigger dick instead of, oh i dont know, my weird mysterymeat ahh malaysian stonecutter ahh penix? Why? Why don't I ever score some? I'm like the patriots. No, even worse, on some beavis shit. And the worst part? I'm an avatarfag……….yeah and all girls in a 10k radius just ran away………
now im sad.
>>948813they got blood underneath them and ink cause ive just been drawing at work all day ngl
>>948814oh fuck yes i love realb hes the coolest ever
>>948816SK;LDJFGKHLUJ DSAFLK;AGFSDLHKUI ADFG LI LRE4WFL HY83
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>>948818are you rlly a girl
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>>948820fuck no i just have that girl mind virus thingy yk the one that makes you weird and a little loud
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>>948818haha u are cool too <3 do not worry ss13 will be back
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>>948793why not get sober bro why are you doing this to yourself
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>>948824i just bought another month of the server today
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>>948796i like your artstyle though. also damn thats fucked i hope you know at least i care abt you if that matters
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>>948829you do NOT GAF abt this nigga, quit playing bruh 🤣
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>>948826it's in development, we got a coder working on it to create content
im gonna make a map for it as well once i garner enough experience in other ss13 projects
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>>948797do you remember OG helltaker and how she would get billions of reppeys on /pol/
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Though I guess my point though, though though though doe, doe, yes, well, shouldn't she love and respect me for who I am? If I am some sort of cripplingly drunk, if SHE cared about me, she'd be like "oh thats okay i still love you" and itd make me happy cause all i wanted was for her to validate me no matter what shitty stuff i do. but noooooo shes like "im uncomfortable" etc. etc. some fucking generic foid shit and this is why i HATE foids but i digress. she was being soooooo fucking annoying and loud and i drink somewhat because of i cant stand her fucking ass and this is literally my only irl gf which is so fucking funny cuz ive been alone all my life but this random bitch from some random dating app just pities me which is sooooooooooooooooo funny but i fucking hate her. like i cannot stand being around her. everytime im with her im like, man why cant i be coding on my indie game instead or playing tf2 on powerhouse or some dumb shit. and i just get so angry at her. and everything hurts like 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000x times more than it probably feels for you which is why i drink or do weed or trip the fuck out and i get so brainfucked cause the urge to melt my brain is just so oddly satisfying like reddit style.
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>>948834what's going to be in your map?
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>>948831GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG
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>>948802why does every woman you know get blacked what kind of evil nigger fortune do you have
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>>948840its gonna be based off the soysylum. i dont have any direct ideas for its layout yet besides perhaps a huge square but theres some concepts ive been playing with, just mild gimmicks. dont expect anything concrete in the near future. if i do start it i'll make a thread on /v/
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>>948846HOLY SHIT DO THIS NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
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>>948847i'd rather make the thread for when i am free to actually dedicate my efforts on such a project
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>>>/ss/ still exists right?
>>948828isnt there anything else you could do bro i just dont want you hurting yourself bro
>>948831im literally the grand emperor of /qa/ i gotta care about my civilians
>>948845og helltaker was a larping nigger though you are honestly cooler
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>>948849pretty sure ss is locked
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>>948846nice, ive been wanting to make my own map too for some while
i was thinking one based off of fpe school since it'd be funny and i have no other ideas that are tangentially sharty kulchur
apparently the CSS server has a custom made epstein island map but no way im recreating that lol
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>>948851fpe button >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
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I transitioned. I'm now epi troonbait fly character.
>>948849idk. i just got off meds cause they keep rotting my brain. it feels like everything i do rots my brain. drinking, smoking, meds, korean skincare, actually that last one is pretty good. my coworkers say my skin looks fucking gorgeous now, which is a big change from now knowing how to shower. of course i still look weird though and a little crazy so everyone still thinks im weird no matter how good it looks, which is pretty funny i guess. no matter what i do people are think like fuck am chopped or something. well i am chopped. but i have braces thats supposed to be getting fixed. it looks a lot better. the point because being though nothing else helps. i just drink because i cant process not drinking. though it doesnt help NGL I HAVE LITERALLY NO IRL FRIENDS NOW LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO IM JUST HERE they all dumped me cause they found my online presence
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>>948857how did ur irl friends find out about ur sharty presence how did u make that happen
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>>948860this can you tell us wtf happened
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>>948860cause i was having an episode again cuz my dad grounded mew cuz he thought i was weird cuz he found my online presence too and i basically got bored and angry and confessed to my friends and made it sound like super evil and exaggerated like i was some chronic lolcow or something and they think im literally a troon or some kind of faggot and they basically got weirded out of me and stopped talking to me and removed me from their telegram. they found my youtubes and whatnot. my dad always stalks my social media, he's even found my instagram too. he got mad at me cuz my bio description was "goth bitch with big tits" even tho i am literally a grown man who looks like chud but he still gave me shit
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>>948865so your dad found out abt your sharty avatarfagging and you also confessed your online history to your friends and now they all think you are some weird pervert?
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my dad has a habit of grounding me a lot and whenever he grounds me he goes into these weird dissociative states where he pretends hes a sargeant again and im the soldier and we play a little game where he yells at me and i do whatever he wants and sometimes i play this little pose called picking the apple tree or i do wallsits for hours or he makes me do pushups and hes like again and again and again and sometimes he gets so mad at me he strangles me and does this little thing where he calls me retarded. one time i was making fun of george floyd the DAY AFTER HE DIED IN LIKE 2020 OR SOME SHIT and he fucking strangled me. because. of. fucking. george. goddamn./ fucking floyd. fucking george floyd. that actually pisses me off to no end im literally mad now that i just remembered.
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idk why im talking like my dad grounds me everyday i just realized im a 21 year old man and i havent spoke to my dad personally in like years
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>>948866they found my youtube channel primarily. i had like 200 subs before i deleted it.
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>>948867bro this nigga is literally caillou bro gets grounded for 30588392004 billion years
>>948869what did you post on your YT
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>>948870GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG btw i just posted shitpost. all the time basically. which was usually editted clips of me and my friends playing shit on steam. and brief ytps. usually my videos were really loud and house of leaves ish. i was just a little sperg and ween before my mom put me on meds.
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>>948871why would they get mad over that wtf?
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what were you diagnosed with im just curious
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>>948872you know what i was gonna type a really long response with some long winding words that blended into each other like i usually do but i just have bpd ngl. im kinda lying my ass off this whole time but also being serious in some allegorical way. idk go figure.
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i wish i had a gf. i guess.
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One time I was really close to having a gf but she got mad at me cause I did some things to her and she wouldn't talk to me again or meet up with me after I got out of school and it was really annoying because everyone gets a gf even my younger brother gets a gf but i never get a gf and theres always someone for everybody i get that but ive never even had a fish that i could call an aquairum and thats the thing that makes me feel really weird
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>>948873>bpdoh
>im kinda lying my ass off this whole time but also being serious in some allegorical way. idk go figure.kinda relate in a way
>>948874so was the asian gf you broke up with a lie
>>948875tell us your story bro what did you possibly do to fuck it up?
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AND WHAT PISSES ME OFF MOST OF ALL IS THAT NOBODY EVEN WANTS TO TALK TO ME LIKE AT WORK PEOPLE ARE LIKE OH, WHAT ARE YOU WORKING ON HELLTAKER GUY, and then i tell them exactly what i feel love for and what i love doing and they look at me like a fucking disgusting mixed race toddler whos gonna vomit and drown in his own vomit and they just think im so disgusting like i have fucking larvae coming out of my mouth and ears and theyre like "oh thats cool helltaker" and they say nothing else. even if i say stuff. sometimes i say stuff and people dont even say things back. thats a common courtesy i thought. and customers i down with they think oh that guy looks normal and then they sit down with me and all the smile and happines s just disappears with from their eyes. and they just lose all life in their voice. and then i sit down with my mom (who diddled me btw) and shes like, uhhh im your mom LMFAOOOOOO but then i go sit down with my dad instead (who beat my ass because of george floyd and i want to genuinely pull the plug on him) and hes like uhhhhhh i hate my son hes like uhhh weak cuz hes like uhhhh stupid lmfao and im like IM NOT STUPID I JUST HAVE DIFFERENT NEEDS OR SOMETHING (or something lol) and the thing that pisses me off sometimes the family relatives come around and they see me and they poiunt and theyre like, oh whats wrong with that guy why is he laughing at nothing in pareticular. and its so fucking weird cause im just darawing or minding my own business doing god knows what and no. nobody ever leave me alone. the thing is that been more than happenin to lately is that fucking chronic ass shit thast fucking poison that kills me i hate shit like that they just piss me off when i get treated like auytistic or some kind of mental basket case like everytime. one time i even missed my dads birthday cause i was in the hospital again. WHICH IS GOOD CAUSE YOU SENT ME THERE.
actually i just realized nobody cares about this shit anymore. idk what to do now. i have nobody and nothing to talk to. LMFAO. but its okay because i usually like my own company. and drawing. but people make fun of me for what i draw. so what gives. i thank las vegas at least. the guy in that hotel room. i sometimes think about that. if i could be alone like that. in some hotel room. and just forgotten and doing my own thing. i think that would be nice and quiet. i want to wortk on my indie game.
i would post it if i had a screenshot of it right now.
>>948876its complicated. im just not sober though. sorry. i almost hooked up with a girl years ago. but i kept making fun of her by calling her fat. and she got really triggered that she refused to talk to me and have sex with me (losing my virginity award) so i have had nobody my whole life. ive actually almost had gfs like 3 times but it never works out because i fail to notice or they get disinterested cause of my self absorbed personality. i think im gonna be lonely my whole life. its valentines day. and i have literally nothing. literally. literally nothing except this right now. and i dont even care about this. i wish i was successful and famous and i looked pretty or something that all girls would like me. but no. instead i am chud and also nigger and also esl and also fnf. ok im not the fnf pedo. but you get my point. im just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo 6,000,000 times fucking angry. it just pisses me off.
ITS VALENTINES DAY AND I AHVE LITRALLY NOBODY FOR THE 21ST TIME. i grew up on watching people fall in love and its something thats never gonna happen to me. ever. im gonna be alone and DIE or even worst im gonna get shot or something and im gonna be dead and im just gonna fall over instantly and there wont be zackdfilms narrating over it on how i survived. no nigga. i DIED. on the spot. like a fucking MORON. its fucking disgusting. i would spit on my own body.
my mom diddled me. and that doesnt help tyo make me feel any better too. so no. im not having a fun day. and the only girl i like right now is LITERALLY TEXTED ME SHES HAVING FUN WITH SOMEBODY ELSE RIGHT NOW. LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. yeah fuck you foid.
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>>948878>vtuberPeople will make porn out of you if you do
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>>948886…ah shit ur rigte
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>>948877>but i kept making fun of her by calling her fat.why would you do that though thats literally fuggen rude man
>i fail to notice or they get disinterested cause of my self absorbed personality.if yk your issue why do you not fix it
>its valentines day. and i have literally nothing. literally. literally nothing except this right now. and i dont even care about this. i wish i was successful and famous and i looked pretty or something that all girls would like me. but no.real asf but like, yk nobody is perfect. you just gotta live with what you got and if you want more you gotta earn it.
>i grew up on watching people fall in love and its something thats never gonna happen to me.feels. all my relationships never lasted while i know people who were having fun since they were 12-13. not saying that early/premarital sex is good but tbh it does feel like you miss out on something because everyone else is having it while you are alone. all i wanted was a relationship but all the girls i got with fricking moved away after 2 weeks.
>LITERALLY TEXTED ME SHES HAVING FUN WITH SOMEBODY ELSE RIGHT NOW.you dodged a bullet