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>Be me
>Male, 22
>Ostensibly high IQ, severe lack of discipline
>Barely graduate HS
>Dropped out of fucking community college, took a year to finally land a job at McDonald's
>Worked at McDonald's to an abusive brownoid manager and then made my way to door-to-door sales
>Had a gun pulled on me and handed in my two weeks notice shortly after
>Somehow landed a gig at a car dealer as a salesman
>Make the "Subarus are for lesbians" joke to an alt girl who said WAY worse things to me first
>She pretends to be offended and I get told to resign it be fired
>With nothing left, I try to join the navy nuclear program
>99 AFQT, I crushed the line-item score for nuke and everything
>Go to MEPS
>Get cleared physically
>Meet with the physician
<"Uhm yes, it says here you have autism, ADHD, depression and anxiety disorder. You also went to a mental hospital for SI in April-May of 2020. And it says here you've been to the emergency room over 30 times in the past 6 years"
>"I can get waivers, right?"
<"Sure, but all that's for the department of the navy to decide"
>I'm fucked
>Hear back from my recruiter
<"Uh yeah, I just got told by MEPS that you showed acute anxiety, frequently repeated your 99 AFQT as a way to show you were psychologically capable of being in the military and you experienced negative symptoms of not being on your meds"
>Basically, I need a bureaucratic mess up of epic proportions to get me outta this one
>At this point, I've lost any desire to be alive
>I wanted to make something out of my life, but I can't bring myself to do things without some scary person screaming at me all the time
>I then remember how my father screaming at me during HS killed any motivation I had to do anything
>Am I just defective?
>Considering suicide rn
>Just looking to vent
â„–922251[Quote]
Have you tried throwing your poop at your enemies?
â„–922252[Quote]
You do NOT look like this, but uhhhhh if this is true then stay strong and don't be a depressed fag, that's gay and cringe. You are 22 you'll bounce back, work on some discipline exercises, and drop the gay ass depression mindset/identity. You can just not do that anymore
â„–922253[Quote]
If you are high enough IQ you can basically decide what your mental health is if you just ignore the jew doctors
â„–922256[Quote]
>>922252I appreciate it bro, just having a hard time. I try to look at the positives, but this just feels like a bit much right now, y'know?
â„–922257[Quote]
>>922253If it means anything, I'm more intelligent than 99% of all recruits for the US armed forces.
â„–922258[Quote]
>>922256Yeah that does suck ass you're right, the cream will settle to the top eventually though, you have a good brain and people always need those. Fuck that dyke at the dealership, being a car salesman is actually an underrated way to get some good cash if you have high verbal iq
â„–922260[Quote]
>>922258Thinking I might leverage this experience at a better dealer. I know way too much about which makes sell how much and the like. Thinking I might become a BMWChad and really get back into car sales now that I'm likely NGMI with the nuclear navy.
â„–922261[Quote]
>>922259Just for you bro. I don't seriously want to die, I'm just severely disappointed with life.
â„–922262[Quote]
not sure if it will be of any actual help, but i used to be a very autistic person in past, trembled in front of people and reacted too strongly
i am not exactly sure when and how did i stop, but i turned it around and am now social, only occasionally having slight aggression issues. i believe i was force-putting myself in difficult situations and tried to grind myself through any emotional pain, like asking random people on street basic things like time or where is this location
ik it's not your exact case but maybe you could try taking inspiration if you still want to change
â„–922264[Quote]
>>922262For me, it's just that I'm a very literal, analytical thinker, so my problem is just that I'm the opposite of female-brained with no thought processes beyond "1+1=2"
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>>922263That video is a Japanerald
â„–922266[Quote]
>>922264what did you try to change?
â„–922267[Quote]
>>922264This might sound a little darksided but you should apply that to manipulating people… but only sometimes
â„–922268[Quote]
>>922267he can barely manipulate himself retard
â„–922269[Quote]
>>922266I've tried actually figuring out what people mean when they say shit instead of taking them at their word. I'm very easy to lie to, unfortunately and my self-awareness does nothing about this either. I've also tried using expressions, but they oftentimes come off as ESL-tier shit.
â„–922271[Quote]
>I can't bring myself to do things without some scary person screaming at me all the time
youre too old to be stressing abt bieng yelled at but i dont mean it in a rude or insensitive way idk your experiences
i used to be like this too you just need a change in mindset and not even that dramatic of one bro youre good i believe in you 5🖤
â„–922273[Quote]
>>922267I'm not saying I can't do it, but that would require me to really get to know them first. I guess I could be a good CIA agent if I put my mind to it.
â„–922274[Quote]
>>922271Do you know how one truly changes his mindset? I tried to brute force it during my days as a car salesman and it didn't change anything realistically.
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>>922269insight is good, but you should work on your spirit. rid yourself of your anxiety for example by doing what i did
â„–922279[Quote]
>>922276How do I seriously not be anxious? That's the question though
â„–922281[Quote]
>>922274just contemplate a lot on how you feel and why you feel that way. there wont be a grand moment of realization where suddenly your mind shifts entirely (unless something really dramatic happens in your life like a death or something) its just gradual small change that happen with some contemplating, but also over time. thats my own experience anyway, maybe somebody else has a better answer
â„–922282[Quote]
>>922268Both are a learnable skill if one has the mental horsepower
>>922273You could, be the glownigger you want to be
â„–922283[Quote]
>>922279you seem to be thinking way too much about your own self. it's plain to see even in your writing style, no wonder you are anxious
i'd say you should put your mind to other things but i assume that's not easy
â„–922284[Quote]
>>922281Thank you. This is good advice.
â„–922286[Quote]
>>922282If I unironically become a glownigger, I'd do everything I can to keep the CIA out of the gemmier sites and focus on the real issues that matter: defending pedophiles
â„–922289[Quote]
>>922283It isn't. The only other things I think about are what Japanslop I'll be playing in the evening and how my dogs are doing.
â„–922290[Quote]
>>922286If you unironically join the CIA you should convince xhem to do operation Gladio 2
â„–922291[Quote]
>>922285I'll give it a shot. Worth it to make myself less anxious.
â„–922292[Quote]
>>922291We believe in you chud
â„–922293[Quote]
>>922288Understood. I appreciate the acknowledgement that there's some validity in how I feel.
â„–922294[Quote]
>>922292Thank you. And also to you bro
â„–922297[Quote]
>>922293It's heckin valid, this is never to make fun of you or belittle you, just to remind you that your mental state is actually under your own control, even if you feel like it's not because external circumstances are dire. That'll pass, but take care of yourself through it even if you think you can't
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>>922296We uplift chuds and help them to succeed
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>>922297Billions must move forward. 💪
â„–922300[Quote]
Just remember that if anxiety is paralyzing, it's not serving its proper use. Let it move you towards action instead of fear. Action and movement is the antidote for anxiety and sadness
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And often depression is nothing more than staying in one place and doing nothing for too long
â„–922302[Quote]
>>922300>>922301Smart stuff. Y'know my therapist usually just tells me to "talk about my feelings" and blames me for everything, which makes me more anxious. I must just learn to think less and be more without compromising my own intellectual abilities.
â„–922303[Quote]
>>922302Rumination is almost always a bad idea unless you're solving a complicated math or engineering problem, therapists should be replaced with fit prostitutes. It's just cleaner
â„–922304[Quote]
Alright 'teen I depart for tonight, don't let the miserable blasterds beat you down, you VVILL prevail
â„–922305[Quote]
>>922303That's something I definitely need to work on. And fit prostitutes would certainly make me more interested in therapy geg
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>>922304Thank you for your time
â„–922307[Quote]
>>922302you need to let yourself be anxious. you get more fearful because youre afraid of the discomfort it brings, but there is no reality where you arent anxious. you should stop fighting the feeling of anxiety.
the more time you spend in a cold shower, the less cold it feels, but nothing about the water changed, you just got used to it. apply this logic to your emotions, theyre always going to be there.
â„–922308[Quote]
>>922307this isnt to say dont act though, if you catch something or someone actually tangible causing these emotions then its a call to act
emotions themselves are not calls for action, and taking action on them does nothing. stop responding to them and get comfortable with the feeling of them
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>>922308>>922307Funny, we went over getting comfortable being uncomfortable in my car sales training.