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>Hello, /qa/.
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>I didn't want to make this post but the recent events have been gnawing at me for the past 2 days and I would like to take that off my chest.
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>First things first, I would like to dispel some rumours that have been flying around after the recent irc ban. I have never in my entire life have had any kind of a sexual attraction towards minors and have never consumed or possessed any CSAM materials, real or drawn. Someone who is actually guilty of that would be as low-key and secretive about it as humanly possible and wouldn't make vague and ambiguous statements on the irc for everyone to see, (unless they're retarded which I don't think I am).
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>Having read that you might be wondering why the fuck would I make these statements in the first place then? Well it all comes down to my stupid sense of humor and a desperate need for a reaction, be it a positive or a negative one. I genuinely think stuff like that is the funniest shit ever and I cannot do anything about it. Truth be told I've actually contemplated sending those messages, realizing that they might be too much. And yet I still hit "Post" as they say, which I deeply regretted afterwards.
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>Most of my bans, save for a few exceptions, have been due to me making these retarded over the top jokes and every single time I seethed because of muh rulecucking and shiiieeet. I still think that some of them weren't nearly as bad and didn't warrant a perma, but rules are rules and everyone is required to abide by them. Being the only child and having my parents spoil me rotten, special treatment has always been the default for me, but that's not much of an excuse now, is it?
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>The aforementioned exceptions to the bans given to me were posting borderline NSFW material (my oekakis) on the blue boards. Practically all of them were given out by Quote himself and I used to foolishly pride myself on that. I have been consuming pornography on almost daily basis since the age of 12 or 13, almost a decade long history of porn addiction, and only God knows where I would've been right now, had I not been exposed to it at such a young age. I've only now realized the harm I might be doing by posting the lewd stuff on boards that are not 18+ (and let's be real here, many of the shartyclucks are not even 16 yet). EPI has it's consequences and I don't want any more of the young impressionable teens end up the way I am. I have to come to terms with the fact that /nate/ is gone and is not coming back. I have almost accepted it but it's hard for the old habits to die off.
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>I would like to apologize to the members of PonyRC and bronies of the site in general since none of them have been as outwardly perverse and degenerate as I've been, which has tainted their reputation greatly. I would also like to say sorry to the janjans that have put up with my shit all this time and have watched on as their warnings weren't heeded and as the rules were broken again and again.
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>I'm not expecting forgiveness, I just wanted to clear some misconceptions and explain myself. Thank you for reading.
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>TL;DR: I fucked up and I feel bad about it