>>54573 (OP) Well firstly, you need to get a job. After you get a job, you can purchase a bodyfat percentage scale. I assume that since you are old enough to get a job, that also means you've gone through high school and understand basic addition. Buy one index card, and create 3 very small accountability checklists. It is these checklists which will cement short term awareness, and what you will use to ensure you are at least aware of whether or not you 1. count calories, 2. measure the result with the bodyfat percentage scale (BMI is not bodyfat percentage, I have a BMI of 24 and a bf% of 10), and 3. measure whether or not you have physically moved yourself into your designated space of exercise. You do not own your own house, you do not have a home gym. Your wanking room is associated with wanking, your tv room is subconsciously associated with watching tv. I am better than you not because I can do whatever I want, but that I can do whatever I want because I respect my subconscious and know it's limitations via awareness and observation of failures.
Lastly, what I have said will probably only last you less than a week in terms of "motivation", so you will need to change your self-image (the fastest way is through trance hypnosis, the second fastest way is through one daily affirmation, the longest is spending thousands of dollars to try to fit in with and become one of some group of powerraisinters). In the creation of affirmations, you are speaking to your subconscious to remold it, so you must speak in the present tense. Trannies and furries do not delude themselves by saying "I will be a girl", they propel themselves into delusion by stating "I am a girl" or "I am a doggy uwu." You will use this propulsion to propel yourself to something you can become, which is extremely fucking based. I said that checklists help you nitpick and observe short term progress and failure, so constantly re-shaping and continuing this vision of what you want to be (what you must be) is what shall keep you slogging towards your goal indeterminately.
Consider joining the Russian Orthodox church, an Orthodox church without pews, and consider developing a daily habit which cultivates the spirit and one's capacity to deduce greater and deeper worldviews which may give oneself greater reason to embrace sun and steel.
>>54628Yon don't actually have to ever cut, just become super self-conscious and eat 0 items of food which make you fat, spending the whole day only eating that which makes you stronger. This is only to be expected after spending more time developing the mind through counting calories, and developing the will to read a book (namely Timothy Ferris' 4 hour body).