/x/ - Paranormal/Schizo

My grandmothers death was announced while I was gooning to bbw porn and now everytine I even think about her I immediately remember when I was masturbating on the day her death was announced, this shit has ruined me and I hope people don’t do it and suffer the same trauma as I did. I really wish I would forget it and not associate her death with it

>>17285
i have similar trauma from it, as i said in the post above i've been learning to leave it behind but it's really tough to do so

I gooned 3 times in a row after months of not touching my peepee, pray for me, brothers.

>>17331
good luck 'teen
you should be able to stop again

Is porn induced Peyronie’s disease fixable with SR? I fucked up my manhood by gripping too hard during my addiction and now it always kind of hangs to the left and is slightly twisted

>>17342
Also, my plan is to leave masturbation by the end of the year and hopefully recover mentally and physically

>>17262
i guess ill make another update: during last week i suddenly remembered a lot more of what i gooned to and it made me feel sort of sick.
i must have forgotten about it until it just resurfaced, it wasn't loli shit thank god but the characters were absolutely teenaged.
even if it was "only a drawing" (i hate that excuse) i still felt gross remembering it.
but i researched this and i figured out that i only did it out of pure compulsion and what my brain was trained on by porn.
which proves >>16544 right, it also shows how true the statement about porn briefly brainwashing you is.
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i hope the several months on recovery are accurate, i can't wait to fully recover from this geg
i'm never doing anything sexual ever again until i get a gf
necessary following greentext
>I am a sad lonely faggot. Here’s some embarrassing information about me. Please don’t bully me with it
but anyways, i have to thank this thread for giving me more motivation to keep going

>>17450
Happy to be of service 'een, it takes time and you won't always make it (you'll have ups and downs) but it's worth it.

>>17452
thanks nevergoonGOD, you really helped me out. it really is worth it

>>17342
>>17343
not sure how this guy wasn't replied to yet but this sounds rough, you might need a professional for that

>>16513
>>16460
self control is good, as you try to overcome lust, and it's not even yours, it's gooner demons around you that look like smeagol that do this to you.
>>16547
pathetic, cut your dick off instead of raping someone, or just fap a lot and calm down instead of raping someone. both are better than raping someone.
>>16559
you're doing the right thing, but I'll let you know a secret. These urges aren't even your own. It's a faggot demon next to you. Stalking you all of your life and trying to get you to want to do sex dreams with it because it's not a real person. Make fun of it for me.
>>16561
Insight.
It does get easier as times goes on. Don't stress out. Take some magnesium supplements for calm, and some lions mane for calm and memory.
>>16565
true but they would just fap a lot. Not that I would send anyone to hell over fapping myself, but the porn industry is 100% by jews, theres a jewish rabbi who runs pornhub. And the Talmud has 8 or 7 genders. Sad.
>>16579
Never spread your porn likes. Don't join a forum about it. Don't blog about it. Try and become more sensible from the shame and experience of wanting self control but giving in. It's a learning opportunity that can help you become a better spouse one day.
>>16587
stress is a part of it, in my experience learning new tangible things helps. Do go and watch 2 guys and a cooler videos on how to make sausages. No it's not a sex pun, just some guy preserving meats in traditional fashions. Cooking shows are good too.

Stress can come from loneliness. But when you learn new things to do, you can entertain guests and friends and partners.
>>17088
Those urges didn't begin with you, it was the gooner enemy who's been stressing you out your life stalking you int he shadows.




What most people don't know is that ghosts are the grossest of gooners. they will not leave you alone since you are their prey. Sheep among wolves type of thing. They molest even peoples minds brainwashing them. chris-chan? He's groomed to talk to them, he thinks they're ponies and sonics, but it's smeagols RPing in his head as girly characters.
The good news is, they will all go to hell. The bad news is. Sometimes they make ppl do crazy shit, like what Chris-chan did. Under severe emotional distress…

Sex dreams are the fake stuff smeagol demons make, their pathetic imaginings about having sex. I feel bad for satanists who take it seriously. It was never real sex but they claim it was.

In this NYC subway interview one schizophrenic talks about what voices do.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=koTq1yYXz54

Well it's not just voices that demons make them hear. There is also impulses and physical feelings that demons guide. Possessing a person is having them react to them a lot. So it's a battle of wills of sorts.

Now you know, now go and practice right, and not wrong.

>>17471
trvthnvke
wise advice, i appreciate it.
the idea that my gooner urges look like smeagol is gemmy too

>>17471
>These urges aren't even your own. It's a faggot demon next to you.
Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeg trvke

>wordswordswords
lefties…

>numbersnumbersnumbers
righties…

>>17088
Me btw, failed again after only eight days, fuck my nigger life that was supposed to be when I quit cold turkey. At least there no lust involved and I didn’t fail without resistance but I’m still pissed that I ejaculated. I always trick myself into believing that there’s some other purpose like figuring out if I cum if my foreskin is held closed. This time it started with seeing if toothpaste would obliterate my peepee (inspired by a shitty ‘gram reel about beating it with toothpaste). Blah blah y’all get the idea, apologies for the blogpoast but I can’t find a better outlet

>>17538
8 days of is a good start at least, there's lots of ups and downs with this o algo asi

Nofap is the biggest psy op that struck men on the internet

>>17478
>>17476
Demons do this to everyone but especially to those that they cannot seduce or tempt to do evil things. It helps you if you become helpful to other people which is worth much more than your gooning episodes.

how is being addicted to rubbing your clitty paranormal

>>17562
there's an invisible smeagol stimulating yours which makes you want to rub it

>>17572
tsmt

>>>17088
>Me btw, failed again after only eight days, fuck my nigger life that was supposed to be when I quit cold turkey. At least there no lust involved and I didn’t fail without resistance but I’m still pissed that I ejaculated. I always trick myself into believing that there’s some other purpose like figuring out if I cum if my foreskin is held closed. This time it started with seeing if toothpaste would obliterate my peepee (inspired by a shitty ‘gram reel about beating it with toothpaste). Blah blah y’all get the idea, apologies for the blogpoast but I can’t find a better outlet

Lustful thoughts always leave once I dirty myself but return when I’m clean. I went to confession again this morning and now I fuckered up and looked (no touching yet).


Egaaads I sound deranged

>>7205
This is so true, the energy from looking at lust-provoking imagery builds up. Avoiding it altogether is the only way.

4 days away from 2 years of NEVER GOON

>>17646
congrats

>>17647
>>17648
Thank you

>>>17088

Woaw, it’s been nine days and I didn’t even notice. I suppose taking things too seriously isn’t always the best way.

It's now official: 2 years complete

>>17723
That's fucking nuts nigga

Never goon month

I spoke to my gooner demon last night, and it claimed to be Fluttershy
How do I rid myself of gooner demons? I don't like it when they whisper to me

Should I get a wife if I can´t control my gooning impulses? If I had a wife all my impulses would be directed in positive and constructive way. I'm just such a blackpilled incel that doesn't try anything to get a gf/wife

>>17766
Yes instead of wasting your energy you will share it with your wife, I don't have gf either but try to go some convention and talk with people

>>17764
is this bait

i just almost started to masturebait to ai girlfriend chatbots i havent jerked off in 9 days what do i do

Do wet dreams count or not

>Do wet dreams count or not

in my experience, once I stopped sperging out over having a wet dream, I never felt different. Any downside you notice may potentially be artificial stress induced by obsessing over it.

but I would say you should still try to reduce them as much as possible

>>17827
>>17828
Alright thx 'een, shit just caught me off guard

>>17450
very small update incoming: i'm still doing good on this
my brain is also still somewhat hard on me for having put myself through years of it (some of the questionable stuff that was done out of compulsion and brainwashing doesn't help) but i've improved especially in comparison to where i was while addicted
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remember to never goon

>>17831
posting again: i did some more self-reflection and i found out that the absolute worst shit i saw was some fucked up tranime crap i looked at when i was 16 years old, i don't even want to describe how bad it was either.
a lot of memories have been suddenly resurfacing from when i used to be addicted, though i'm guessing it's because my brain is recovering from all of it.
it leaves me feeling damaged tbh, hopefully i can function better when this passes over.
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i have about no sexual urges at all anymore, but it does make me feel sad it needed to get this bad for me to get out of it.
ik i was told to never spread what i've seen in porn by the anti-smeagolGOD in >>17471 but i'm just dumping off random trauma from all of it now rather than genuine porn likes, it kind of feels good to get this off my chest.
however, i apologize if it seems like i'm being an attention whore.
necessary following greentext (again)
>I am a sad lonely faggot. Here’s some embarrassing information about me. Please don’t bully me with it

>>17835
posting about this again for the third time: today i learned it's pointless and retarded to continue thinking back to all of that, and i really need to put my thoughts into way more important things.
very obvious conclusion GEG but nonetheless both my physical and mental health are really coming back after i quit gooning.
it seems like what i was describing is just part of the recovery, but it was interesting to leave my thoughts off about it here.
i hope you're all doing good, keep up the never goon streaks you all have and keep them permanent.

My longest nofap streak so far has been 6 days, first it was 2 days, then 4 days, now it's 6 days, the 6 day streak was achieved this month.

would anyone recommend extensions to block porn sites, are they trustworthy?

>>17764
They won't leave you until you progress more in resisting them. Then by the work of resisting them and telling them to kil themselves and calling them ugly, you will become free of them one day, prepare for years long battles. There will be nightmares.

>>17876
apps won't help you quell the desires of your heart, only your own efforts and hearts desire to be circumcised.

>>17876
Not really an extension but on the Brave browser there is an option to block porn sites. Go to settings -> shields -> content filtering and select “Blocklists Anti-Porn”. Make sure “Trackers and ads blocking” is set to aggressive make it work. You can also set up custom filters if any sites slip through the cracks using this format: ||example.com^ Just enable developer mode first before you do so.