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>I love you
You don't even know me. Spreading out the concept of love so broadly to everything without reason just reduces the notion of love to meaningless sludge.

>I hope one day, we will get along, and everyone will be happy, and the pain of the world will go away.
Life is entirely predicated on struggle and suffering. "Everyone's" happiness is a logical contradiction when people have conflicting desires. Without pain people stagnate and start rotting very quickly, there are countless examples of this. You're not going to rewrite the world to the point where ignoring pain magically means your hand stops getting eaten by bacteria. The very sun that gives us life burns us. You will never change this and you will only hurt yourself longing for a world that will never be. Learn Stoicism.

>Sometimes I wish that the pain of the people I love will get transferred to me, the pain of the world to bear on my shoulders. Is this a savior complex?
No, it's a martyr complex. It's one of the most naive and immature viewpoints you could have and blatantly broadcasts that you've never experienced true pain. You can read about countless situations where people thought they could martyr themselves and take other people's lashes and they all break at the first crack of the whip. You need to read 1984, the main character has this exact complex broken the minute he expresses it.

>Deep down, am I doing this because it would make me feel better, or make everyone feel better? I don't know, and the fact that I don't know makes me think that I am a bad person.
Why would feeling good for helping others make you a bad person? You've been brutally psy opped into a dangerous emotional slavery where every avenue of altruism is just another excuse to doubt and torture yourself. Read Atlas Shrugged.

>I don't want to be a bad person, do you? I don't want to be cold.
Better to be cold than to be served up as a dish on a platter for parasites. The accusers and guilt trippers calling others bad people for not serving them are inevitably the most torturous and sociopathic actors themselves.

>>20805


I'm sorry.

It's nice to hear someone who still has hope within themself, it's all too uncommon these days. I wish you the very best anon

>>20805
Mmmmmm I bet you could genetically engineer people to not feel pain but still recognize themselves being harmed. Or just have some device that detects infection and harm to the wearer.

>>20805
kys for recommending atlas shrugged.

>>20803 (OP)
>Sometimes I wish that the pain of the people I love will get transferred to me, the pain of the world to bear on my shoulders.
pain doesn't necessarily mean a bad thing, neither objectively nor subjectively. Objectively the pain might make us stronger and more resilient to inner and outer adversities or break us down physically or mentally, subjectively the pain might serve as a morale crutch to help us see through others' downsides or make us more aggressive like a wounded animal. we do not know pain in all its beauty, but we know that consciously leaving a person tete-à-tete with it is equal to throwing a man into Coliseum

Hopemaxxers and lovemaxxers won. God bless you ‘een

>>20829
no they didn't. jews won

sure, you should love the people that care about you and like you, love the different things you enjoy, and love the things about planet earth that you find beautiful. however let me tell you this, you shouldn't love humanity as a whole because you cant. mo matter how hard you try you'd find someone that does something that'll make you hate them, or have disdain towards them. and i am not just talking about disagreements, there are people on planet earth that you should hate or not show any love or compassion to them. save love, dignity, care, mercy, and compassion for your fellow human beings that actually matter. but here is the deeper issue, love is tiring. lets entertain the idea that you don't care about people's personalities, wrongdoings, and whether they like you or not. you wouldn't. its already impossible to treat everyone with the same equal love, let alone loving all of humanity. you'll always value some people over others, that's just how it works.
and i agree that it would be nice if we all got along. but! hoping for something that is simply impossible is delusional. you know damn well that humanity will always be stuck in a cycle of misery of pain. humanity would always disagree and always fight. that's just human nature. world piece is impossible and you should accept that.
>Sometimes I wish that the pain of the people I love will get transferred to me, the pain of the world to bear on my shoulders. Is this a savior complex? Deep down, am I doing this because it would make me feel better, or make everyone feel better?
what kind of pain are you talking about? logically you probably talking about pain in general whether physical or mental. that'll just completely break you mentally and physically and mentally. you cant handle it. that's one of the most retarded things ever.
>I don't know, and the fact that I don't know makes me think that I am a bad person.
I don't want to be a bad person, do you? I don't want to be cold.
its fine to be cold. no sane person forces themselves to be a good person that takes all the pain and can handle it.

im gay

The way I see it, misery is a universal constant and one that sometimes sticks out the most, but it is not entirely a bad thing either. We are all miserable because we are built to be miserable at a constant rate of at minimum some of the time, sometimes all of the time, and it leads some people to two things depending on their ideas of others. They either think of themselves as the only truly sapient, or want to feel as though they are not the most miserable, leading to a world more miserable; or they see others as some form of an extension of oneself and so wish for the endless quest of non-misery, leading to a world less miserable.

We can't be nice to everyone, we can't even love everyone because how often have to looked at every piece of yourself and loved what you saw? People show what they want you to see, or what they can't help but show given their hand in life and mental stability. Realistically you must know someone to truly love them, and even then you might hate them sometimes. You've been roomies with yourself for long as you can remember, self-hatred is only natural when you truly know your flaws for the first time, or fourth or eighth or twenty-fifth time.

Either way, it's not love we should strive for, it's understanding. Even my enemies I can learn to understand; who they are, what they stand for, the life story and chapter ends, the canon events, the way thoughts are led to the abyss and some can't bend back once they reach the place, when they don't know WHAT to do with themselves. If they are human, and are capable of reason, then it makes me hate them more that they choose to spread misery instead of finding a way by equation or magic or secret ancient breathing technique to lessen the misery in their world and in turn the misery in THEM. They choose to believe undesirables according to friends connected to their head via radio-transmitting tumor are actually not human at all and simultaneously must feel the human emotion of misery to ensure a swift exit any means necessary (especially if it makes them hard).

I want to study, deduce by scientific method, gather empirical data, all in the name of preventing the people that show the worst part of me. I want to ensure that change IS possible and prove that misery doesn't need to be a permanent state. In my very strong and incredibly bragadocious opinion, it should literally be the mission of humanity itself.
I just think I need to find a way to simultaneously care and not care, because it is true. When we're red hot, we burn out quick and die, when we're cold we freeze alone with no huddle and we die. Lukewarm is a difficult balance.

>>20905
Ev&doe Christ is the light of the world his mission was to bring as many were willing out of misery (not in the timeline we expect albeit)

>>20907
What do you mean by timeline we expect? Like, the way things are going right now?

Either way that's just it, I do ultimately believe in striving TO bring people out of misery. Maybe it's because I am essentially miserable all the time it leads me to thinking that everyone seems miserable all the time to some degree, but it definitely seems like people are overall dealing with SOME kind of unhappiness, unwellness, handicap or whatever. Some worse than others, but it is indeed a universal experience. Many things will be universal. That's where empathy is stronger than a vague "loving everybody". I can hate myself, but still understand why I am the way I am and work to change it. It's the same with others. I hope they change, and see, and ultimately I believe they should get the help they desperately need so they can stop spreading their misery to other people. This is where Jesus saves people. It's just not in me to love everyone, especially since the love of Hashem is pretty strange and confusing and strewn with the treachery of human error.

That is just me though, I'm more agnostic than anything but Jesus was really really cool and I do wish more "Christians" actually tried to be him, although I feel like this sentiment's a little cliched at this point.

>>20908
I decent amount of people who get turned off from christianity say they feel like the Lord hasn't answered they're prayers or still feel miserable, and alot who feel like the Lord has helped them say they're answered when they needed to be, thats what I mean by timeline.