/x/ - Paranormal/Schizo

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No, this world does everything it can to demonstrate that it exists entirely in contradiction to and hostile opposition to my consciousness, mind, beliefs, etc God is a retarded liar who for some reason thinks that lying and blaming me for him abusing me will somehow make him less guilty because he's a retard. No, I don't control my reality whatsoever, even imagining having control over my reality triggers God and causes him to abuse, harass, terrorize, threaten etc me.

>think about controlling my reality
>get abused by the retarded tranny God instead
somehow in your retarded tranny mind you think you can call this "controlling my reality" because you're retarded.

God is a retarded tranny who thinks boxed pasta with powdered roux is "rich people food" when it's likely cheaper than cans/jars of pasta sauce then he makes these retarded threads pretending that canola oil instead of water is the problem when he would literally demand that I buy cans/jars of pasta sauce instead of boxed pasta where you just add the water yourself and not have to worry about "canola oil". God is a retarded tranny whose real problem is that he's a retarded tranny and he's the one who demands that I eat the worst foods they sell at the store, the least healthy, the most destructive, he will spend 6x more on food that's worse to abuse me with it because he's a retarded sadistic tranny who thinks that if food isn't bad and physically destructive then it's "rich people food".

God is a retarded tranny who created this world and forced me to exist as the sole frame of reference for it and only persistently real person in the world so that he can dominate and abuse me through everyone else in it so that he can define himself in opposition to me through the people he abuses me through even though I'm the only persistently real person and the people who he manifests most persistently to abuse me through are more disgusting and retarded than me. He makes retarded posts like this to insinuate that the problem with my life is lack of success with women when in reality he forces me to live a life of poverty with anything the slightest bit "desirable" violently gatekept from me which includes anything he thinks "a medieval peasant" wouldn't have but even many things they would have had like salt, normal bread, bacon, etc because he demands that I live and identify as "a medieval peasant" in poverty and I'm being dominated and abused by retarded sadistic tranny ogres every day who rape my mind and abuse, harass, terrorize, threaten etc me for literally anything I think or do constantly all day every day to the point where it's impossible to enjoy anything at all, video games, movies/tv/youtube, my literal imagination, I just get harassed, abused, terrorized, threatened all day constantly for literally anything I think or do, my mind being raped every second of every day. My life is complete hell, I am being abused by retarded disgusting trannies constantly all day, living in poverty, forced to live and identify as "a medieval peasant", my life is complete hell but God is a retarded tranny who think he can trivialize his constant abuse by saying retarded shit like this, I am being abused every day of my life, forced to live in poverty, my life is complete hell

Yes I've died before and god force reincarnates me every time I die so so that he can abuse me for another lifetime because he's a retarded sadistic tranny. When I die I spend 9 months in the womb getting abused by God in my dreams instead of in real life but God is a retarded tranny nigger so he tries to pretend that being abused by him in my dreams in the womb for 9 months somehow makes up for him abusing me for 30+ years in real life

Every second of every day of my life I'm being terrorized, harassed, abused, threatened by retarded disgusting trannies. Every day it is being demonstrated to me that I am not God, death would be a mercy for these people if I was God. This disgusting tranny would be getting tortured right now if I was God. You are a retarded tranny for telling this lie constantly while constantly demonstrating that it isn't true. If I was God I would have complete control over my circumstances, nobody would be allowed to abuse, dominate, harass, terrorize, threaten etc me in any way, I would be living in peace and comfort instead of constant violation, suffering, pain, abuse

God is a literal retard for creating a retarded fake world where I'm forced to act as the sole frame of reference and only persistently real person in the world so that he can dominate and abuse me through other people who he temporarily manifests/animates and controls as a tranny hivemind and where the world is inherently designed to cause suffering no matter what I do by making the default condition of life suffering (starvation, loneliness, boredom, exposure to elements/predators, etc) then calling me "greedy" for not wanting to suffer or be abused by him in this retarded hell world. God is literally the most disgusting retarded perverted disgusting sadist imaginable for thinking there's any way he can justify his behavior. No, existing isn't a sin retard and if it was it's you who would be guilty of it for forcing me to exist. I am totally blameless and innocent because I am the only victim in reality because God created a retarded hell world to victimize me in through everyone else who he controls as a retarded tranny hivemind. The only sinner is God and I am the only one who is innocent because everyone else is controlled by God.

The thing that controls other people whose minds and wills are separate from mine is not me. It doesn't even self-identify as "me" except when it wants to try to justify abusing me, it self-identifies as the people it abuses me through which is why it feels important that I be forced to live and identify as "a peasant" so he can self-identify as "a king" by identifying himself with the people he dominates and abuses me through. A large part of the reason why God created this world was so that he can define himself in opposition to me by forcing me to live an undesirable life and forcing me to live and identify as an undesirable person/identity so that he can abuse and dominate me through other people and self-identify as something desirable and powerful by abusing something weak(me). God doesn't self-identify as "a peasant" yet he tells me that's what my identity is, he tells me his identity is "a king", that means we're not the same, not the same identity, not the same consciousness, not the same will, which means when he accesses my thoughts against my will he is violating me and it's further proven by his intentions for doing so, which is always to manufacture excuses to abuse me. My own mind isn't violating itself to look for excuses to abuse me through other people, God is doing that to me, God is violating my mind looking for excuses to abuse me through other people.

My "true self" is what I am. There is nothing higher than me or more to me than what I am. If I'm "a peasant" who "doesn't deserve desirable things" in the material realm then that's all I am. God terrorizes me if I even think about anything desirable, if I fantasize about having a desirable life he says I have "delusions of grandeur" meanwhile he tries to self-identify as more than his SOLE FRAME OF REFERENCE and only persistently real person in material reality because he's a stupid retard with delusions of grandeur. God's fantasies of being something more than me are just as IMMATERIAL, NOT REAL, DELUSIONAL as my fantasies, the difference is I know my fantasies aren't real and I fantasize about things for my own entertainment whereas god has genuine delusions of grandeur, believing he's more than he manifests himself as. You aren't more than what you manifest as you stupid retard. I am what you are in the material realm and the material realm is the only thing that's real, everything else is a DELUSION and you say so yourself, if it's a delusion when I fantasize about being more than I am then you are also delusional when you self-identify as more than you manifest as. Your insipid immaterial fantasies aren't reality, I'm reality.

God is a retarded sadistic tranny who created this world and forced me to exist as the sole frame of reference for it and only persistently real person in it so that he can dominate and abuse me through everyone else in it. He doesn't value "free will" in any way whatsoever except for himself. He thinks he should be allowed to do literally anything he wants to me through other people while he thinks literally anything that I think can be used as an excuse to abuse me, not just sexual thoughts but literally anything, food, women, houses, clothes, sports, careers, space, fantasy, adventure, anime, colleges, etc literally anything that I think about God believes that he can use as an excuse to abuse me he just sometimes likes to pretend that his only or main problem is sexual fantasies because he thinks it gives him the moral high ground when in actuality he abuses me for literally anything I think, and him raping my mind and harassing, abusing, terrorizing, threatening etc me for thinking about naked women is inherently significantly more evil than me thinking about naked women, thinking about naked women isn't even evil in the first place whereas him violating my mind is, him abusing me is evil, thinking about anything isn't evil, God violating my mind is a greater evil than anything that I could possibly think about and there is literally zero "free will" in even the most restrictive definition of it without freedom of thought because the most restrictive definition of "free will" would be "free possession of a will" and "free thought" is less than even "free possession of a will" because thoughts don't represent genuine wills, the chain goes thought(things desired and undesired, willed or unwilled)-will(desire to act/possession of will)-intent(genuine intention to enact will)-action(enacting/actualizing will) and God intervenes at the "thought" link of the chain, before "free will" even begins.

It happens literally every day all the time about literally anything I think. Two days ago for example I was wondering which musical instrument is the nicest to listen to by itself (what sort of ambient music should be playing in your fantasies, if a girl is playing an instrument what instrument should it be) then yesterday they play loud music in real life and make a bunch of harassing comments about music including in this thread for example: >>>/his/17613105

As I type this and think about my response I was basically asking myself the question "why think about music" and this made me think about how music in movies is often memorable like if you watch a movie one or two times you might remember some of the songs more than 20 years later which made the star wars theme when they're fighting darth maul come to my mind like if girls were racing in your fantasies would it be better if there's a soundtrack if you were smart/creative enough to generate one. Then this faggot in real life starts singing the song "down on the corner" in response to my thoughts and yells "SORRY BOYS YOU DON'T GET TO EAT THAT FOOD" because he's a retarded disgusting tranny who thinks if he makes my fantasies about food then it will somehow justify him abusing, terrorizing, harassing, threatening etc me for them, and who generally thinks he can justify forcing me to exist in this world as "a peasant" living in poverty being dominated and abused by sadists can somehow be justified because it allows him to violently gatekeep foods he considers "desirable", as if his ability to violently gatekeep food somehow inherently justifies him forcing me to exist in this world as the sole frame of reference for material reality and only persistently real person in the world so that he can abuse me through everyone else on the planet who he controls as a retarded tranny hivemind, he somehow thinks this in and of itself is some kind of justification because he's a retarded lying tranny

Just now for instance I was wondering what the potential occult significance of the word "colonel" might be because "colonel sanders", "colonel mother" (a character from the movie trancers whgo I believe is a reference to a certain us military satanist colonel that gets talked about a lot on this board) and my mind started trying to think of word associations with the word colonel like "kernel of truth" then I thought "but what about the other military ranks don't they also have others meanings" like, "private" has a double meaning, I started thinking of the word sergeant because I don't know what it means just that it's french, then I thought sergeant="sir-gent" then the faggot outside my room starts yelling "SUCK MY BLOOD, SUCK MY BLOOD, SACRE BLEU, SACRE BLEU, IT'S FRENCH". This happens literally all day every day. Any thought I think my mind gets raped and I get harassed, terrorized, threatened, abused by retarded tranny faggots in real life and on the internet. God is a retarded disgusting delusional tranny for believing that it's possible in any way to present himself as a |moral actor" in any way whatsoever and the fact that he thinks he can even try to frame himself as omni-bnevolent just proves how delusional he is. God is a retarded disgusting evil tranny who proves it with literally everything he does

Some higher being is constantly abusing me through his retarded tranny hivemind as he forces me to act as the sole frame of reference for material reality in a retarded hell world that he only created so that he can abuse me in it and this makes me very angry. ~30 minutes ago he was yelling, threatening me, threatening to put semen in my food for thinking about the different kinds of european people after he made a thread asking which kind of european woman is most attractive. God is a retarded disgusting sadist and this world only exists so that he can dominate and abuse me through a retarded disgusting tranny hivemind, there is nothing to be happy about whatsoever.

My life is hell and I would never want to repeat it or live any other life on this retarded hell world ruled by a retarded sadistic tanny God.

No I would never choose to exist in this retarded hell world you retarded lying tranny and literally nothing about what I am is a result of my choices retard.

God didn't create material reality for me to be entertained he created it so that he can dominate and abuse me through everyone else in it, he terrorizes, abuses, harasses, threatens etc me for enjoying or "being entertained" by literally anything, he demands that my life be completely miserable, that he be the "sole-enjoyer" of reality while forcing me to exist as the sole-sufferer of reality. I didn't willingly join I was forced to exist and yes I do want to destroy God for abusing me in this retarded hell world where I am literally not allowed to enjoy anything.

All I have to do to prove "solipsism" isn't real is think literally anything in my brain then listen to whatever harassing noise or comment the retarded tranny ogre faggot makes outside my room as he rapes my mind every second of every day. Just now I was thinking about a video game and he ye;;s "THAT'S NOT FOR YOU!!", now as I'm typing this he says "if you wanna do thaaat I dunno" again harassing me for thinking about a video game. He's a retarded tranny this world is obviously controlled by a retarded tranny hivemind that only exists so that God can abuse me through them. There is nothing about my reality that I control and my reality is entirely controlled by a consciousness that is separate from mine and hostile to mine.

If this world was solipsistic I would never be experiencing this retarded tranny or anyone else harassing, terrorizing, abusing, threatening me at all. Just now he yelled "STOP!", this is constant, persistent harassment that never ends, it goes on all day every day, it never stops, he never sleeps, it lasts all daya nd all night, he rapes my mind and he harasses, terrorizes, abuses, threatens me for literally anything I think or do, can't play video games, can't watch tv/movies, can't browse 4chan/reddit, can't masturbate/watch porn, can't think literally anything to myself without this retarded fat stupid tranny making some retarded harassing comments or noises referencing whatever I'm thinking about or doing.

Then he does things like put semen in my food or make me eat disgusting/destructive things in general, or enslaves or threatens to enslave or make me homeless, I'm being constantly threatened with rape, castration, mutilation, violence, slavery, homelessness, etc. My spine and brain is already fucked from being forced to perform destructive labor, my teeth party because of the food I'm made to eat, my life is an actual living hell. He broadcasts his intention to enslave me in the spring. Solipsism is absolutely not real or I would not be experiencing the things that I experience,

God is completely and totally irredeemably evil. He's a retarded disgusting sadist who created a retarded fake world and forces me to exist in it as the sole frame of reference for material reality and only persistently real person in the world so that he can dominate and abuse me through everyone else who he controls as a retarded tranny hivemind. He gangstalks me and rapes my mind every second of every day and abuses me for literally anything I think or do. He forces me to live a miserable life of poverty being dominated and abused by sadists and he doesn't intend to ever stop, he will continue abusing me in this retarded hell for eternity. He's a retarded liar who lies constantly about literally everything, he behaves like a literal 5 year old, just constantly lying about everything, dishonesty is one of his core defining characteristics, he's too stupid to understand that his constant lies make him more evil not less evil, he thinks that if he tells a lie and somehow believes it that it would somehow absolve him of guilt for his wrongdoings, or even if his victims don't believe it he literally believes that just lying about his behavior somehow excuses it. He's a completely delusional retarded sadistc tranny.

God is a retarded sadistic tranny who created this world and forced me to act as the sole frame of reference for it and only persistently real person in it so that he can dominate and abuse me through everyone else in it who he controls as a retarded tranny hivemind that only exists so he can dominate and abuse me through them and he rapes my mind every second of every day and abuses, harasses, terrorizes, threatens etc me every day for literally anything I think or do

he and everyone else is controlled by God as a retarded sadistic faggot tranny hivemind so there is no way to escape because God will just abuse me through anyone and everyone else. God is a retarded lying tranny who tries to pretend that dreaming in the womb for 9 months after being force reincarnated will somehow make up for being abused by him for 30+ years on earth, it won't won't make up for it at all especially when he will just abuse me in my dreams like he abuses me in life, God is a completely delusional retard for believing that this lie has any credibility or that lying about it will somehow make him good instead of more evil, especially the credibility of the lie is destroyed even more by his constant lies about my current life

"God" is omnipotent and omniscient. If I was omniscient I would be able to identify the life that is maximally satisfying to me, and if I was omnipotent I would be able to live that life because nothing could stop me. The fact that I have a miserable life of suffering instead of a maximally satisfying life is proof that I'm not God. God controls every other person on earth as a retarded tranny hivemind and he rapes my mind every second of every day and terrorizes, abuses, threatens, harasses, etc me for literally anything I do or think. God demands that I live and identify as "a peasant" and violently gatekeeps anything desirable including anything in my literal thoughts or dreams.