/soy/ - Soyjaks

I look at myself in the mirror sometimes and whether it fully sets in in that moment or not, I realize my life is pretty much over.

I am a genetic failure and because of my personality and looks, no one will ever look at me with love in their eyes. I'm not hideous, but I'm like a 5/10 with average height and bad unattractive personality and weird mannerisms and facial expressions. No one who's pretty or even average will ever look at me and love me. I look like a clown or comedian and it's impossible that someone would naturally respect me.

I'm emotionally unstable and not even a very good person and I previously acted cruel to NDs that are uglier and harder to take seriously than me because I felt that I am socially above them. It's the way of nature. Whenever I act fake or like an asshole, the world seems to accept me more, as if it signals to the sociopathic performative NT normies that I am at least somewhat like them.

It's over and that's okay.