/soy/ - Soyjaks

What to do if I have no hope for the future whatsoever? I remember when I was little I had plans and aspirations for the future and I could study for hours everyday and I could play sports and excercise and stuff but now when I wake up and get out of the bed I find it difficult to even put one foot in front of the other. What is the point? Why even bother? It's all completely meaningless if there isn't a clear end goal to reach. I dropped out of college and my parents don't even know that, I don't have the heart to tell them they don't know that I'm just parasiting off their money and do nothing all day. What am I gonna do when my time finally runs out I don't know, I don't even know if I'll last that long I'm so fucking lost man and this piece of ahit is the only place I can talk about this because I have no friends and have been completely isolated for the past few years, this is the only place I talk to people, anyone at all