/soy/ - Soyjaks

Did anyone turn themselves gay?

>be straight guy most of life but have submissive fantasies
>watch femdom and start watching pegging and bi femdom
>watch the james bond movie where he gets strapped to a chair and tortured and something in my head clicks
>start watching full blown gay porn and watch it primarily
>finally take the plunge and get barebacked by two guys one after the other

My only issue is that I struggle to enjoy bottoming. I've only brought myself to near anal orgasm twice after trying dozens of times.