i feel relief when my brain reminds me that i abandoned everyone. i dont have to deal with them anymore.

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Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:18:28 №18545325 [Quote]

i feel relief when my brain reminds me that i abandoned everyone. i dont have to deal with them anymore.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:19:21 №18545333 [Quote]

I am wondering if I should do the same but there’s too many loose ends right now.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:20:29 №18545343 [Quote]

>>18545333
lad i was scared shitless of doing it but now i look back like it was a comedy

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:21:31 №18545354 [Quote]

>>18545343
I already tried to run away once, but they found me. I’ll probably attempt to again at the end of the year.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:23:02 №18545381 [Quote]

>>18545354
ah is it the people you live with? for me my family are the only ones i havent cut off because yknow…house

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:24:46 №18545400 [Quote]

>>18545381
Yeah. I honestly don’t know why I want to because I have no destination. Going homeless and dying from the harsh winter is probably preferable to what I’ve got now.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:27:08 №18545449 [Quote]

>>18545400
i ran away at 16 (mostly for a pisstake) but went home the next day. i also do not love my family and know they do not love me but i am living at this home to heal and work on myself before migrating because no matter where you to you take your mind with you. could you do the same? id be happy to help

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:29:21 №18545501 [Quote]

Doing this made me retarded and mentally ill but also let me think about my life and personality more seriously so I think I would have been worse off otherwise

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:31:00 №18545532 [Quote]

>>18545501
facts! i know from another perspective i would look like theres something awfully wrong with me but i love my life

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:31:56 №18545546 [Quote]

>>18545449
Well, to be honest. I just feel like I’m making no progress. I’ve been here forever and all I can think about is how bleak my future is. I’m really out of options at this point.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:33:14 №18545556 [Quote]

>>18545546
i really hope you do not only see progress as money materialism or career

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:37:15 №18545593 [Quote]

>>18545556
It kind of is. I have trouble understanding what else matters as much in this world.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:39:12 №18545618 [Quote]

>>18545593
health, spirit and knowledgge

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:43:26 №18545658 [Quote]

>>18545618
Do you think it’s possible for some people to serve zero purpose? That they’ve lived longer than they should have? Or do you think that as long as you’re alive then that’s all that matters?

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:46:09 №18545693 [Quote]

>>18545658
i am using this life to prepare for the afterlife. thats my purpose. everything to me with 0 to the demons of this realm. i believe this is fate for me and to each their own. if being alive means being one with god then for your own sake yes thats literally the only goal.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:48:03 №18545713 [Quote]

geg groomers on the sharty are encouraging users to cut everyone in their life off

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:48:31 №18545719 [Quote]

>>18545693
I guess I have a tendency to see things very narrowly. I don’t really believe in any gods or anything, so I guess that’s why my life is so shit. My worldview is very close-minded.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:50:48 №18545736 [Quote]

>>18545719
with amazing awareness. i think thats enough to kickstart a spiritual journey. around that same time at 16 i was in a massive nihilist phase and fuck i hated life.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 03:55:19 №18545771 [Quote]

>>18545736
What does a “spiritual journey” mean for you?

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 04:01:45 №18545871 [Quote]

>>18545771
cliche but i cannot put it fully into words but ill try. it connected all of the dots to everything ive ever asked. it made me fear death way less. it allowed me to disconnect from the negativity of this world. it literally solved all of my problems and its like i can only describe its contrast to how it solves it all.

Chud 10/20/26 (Tue) 04:05:02 №18545962 [Quote]

>>18545871
Interesting. Is it, like, religion for you? Or something else?