/soy/ - Soyjaks

>>18457808 (OP)
>I'm a 50 white man who's been fantasizing about becoming a submissive sissy for superior black men for years. I dress in panties and goon over BBC, BNWO porn all the time but can't seem to go through with an actual real life meet up. I just chicken out, the other guy does or something happens and we don't meet. I need to be discreet (due to my job) and am not in a relationship at the current time. Is anyone else in the same predicament? How do I over come my fears? Are there any signals superior black men send out that indicate they are into sub white men? Are there things I can do to signal to black men that I want to be their sissy side chick?

>I met a woman that loved to instruct people on how to jerk off, and everytime we played together, she was gradually switch from women ass to more subtle pictures with big cocks in it, while still making me masturbate for it.

At first it was women ass, then women suck white cocks, then women slurping on BBC and so on, and i kept obeying her but never came, as often denied me.

Then it went a step further and sent me solo girlcocks, picture focused on dicks for me to get hard and stroke to, she was definitely conditioning my clitty to get hard for big cocks and i loved it.

Until one day she sent me a solo BBC picture as a first message, and told me "get hard for it cuck" and i did…

Then stroking to the edge as she command for BBC, and again no cummies 🫠

Now i do love that kind of play and especially gambling my orgasm, unfortunately i struggle to cum on my own for solo BBC alone… but i love to gamble my orgasm, here's an example :

One game is about finding a waifu blacked, and if you do find her, you own my orgasm and can make me cum for whatever, and i especially look to squirt for solo BBC on video !!…

And i also sometime think if i was a bit popular online as a whiteboi cumtribute big black cocks, it would be so hot and I'd be more encouraged to keep going and it would reinforce my love for BBC, until i get hard and cum only for them!

That thought of being an online cumtribute whore for BBC only is so hot, unfortunately my previous mistress doesn't want to help me with that.

>>18457808 (OP)
>Whitebois are never going to have a chance at having a woman. We have to be our own girls. The best we can hope to get is just a circle of us sucking each others clits at night when our masters are not using us. How long did it take you to finally realize you’d never be able to cum as a straight man again?

>The alternative is permanent chastity and pegging each other in a big circle. Feel free to share any of your own thoughts!