/soy/ - Soyjaks

I had only been fucked once before I had BBC. I had met up with a couple white guys but I'd chicken out after sucking them off. They were nice, 'we can stop if you want' types. I met up with this one white guy 3 times & decided to go through with it just to see, he was really nice & it was okay but not amazing.

But with the first time I tried it with a black guy, we went to a really sketchy motel & smoked weed. When he got me on my knees, he got real pushy & told me I better be a good boy & make it worth the cash he spent on the room & weed. Slapped me 'playfully'. "You like this cock, bitch", grabbed my throat until I said 'yes sir'. Made me feel like his whore like no other guy did.

I was pretty young, he was big & could manhandle me easily. When I started thinking about chickening out, I started thinking that he could just murder me or something in this sketchy ass motel & no one would know.
That fear is the feeling of being in the presence of a REAL man. The idea that domesticated 'white men' are men is a lie, real men are essentially animals. You should be afraid to piss one off. I panicked & the only thing I thought of was how to please him so he would be nice to me. I tried telling him to slow down & not be rough but he didn't really listen. He choked me & fucked me raw.

When I sucked off nice white guys, I thought 'if my friends knew, they'd call me a faggot', a little post-nut regret but mostly just excitement at doing something forbidden & secret. But when I was dominated by BBC, it was more 'I'm not even a man'. A mix of falling shame & humiliation of being used like a bitch by a superior animal, but also the ecstasy that this real man wants to fuck me. I wanted him to keep telling me how my cute tight white hole was opening up for his cock "you're a real bitch for it, aren't you".

We met up a few times until he moved. Every time I thought I was gonna be more assertive but I bitched out for him again.
In conclusion: "Yes daddy."