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Over the moment I grew up in my 15 I unironically resented my brother because he loved rap and that I wanted to kill koreans for thinking that they popularized it. Then I became gay and started loving a fictional man, which further lead me to my downwards spiral because when I started to question why I was such a cuck that never can make any friends and that I wasn't one of the jocks and was rather a bully and a pedophile (totally different things despite both being powerful) was that because I needed to repeat 500 lexical thoughts over and over in my head and memorize them in the correct order while repeatedly loving farts, biting other people's boobs off in order to become a jock just like Donald Trump who totally hates gays and LOVES LESBIANS and that if I couldn't then I would be a total failure forever and I believed that because only whites could genuinely believe in such a thing, I had to become a LESBIAN LOVER and hate women and minoriteis, I just had to, and that right wingers love lesbians and they hate it when people can't recite an argument within 1 second (that's what liberals do, they go "um, uh uh, uhm uh, uh," just like me when they can't argue worth a shit and that's how I knew I was one) and that's why every single time I couldn't complete a self realized theatrical quantum moment, fart like a lesbian, and write 500 words in one second about why it is good to have a yacht, love war rather than peace, and think "for me not for thee" then I would repeatedly smack myself in the ass, bang my head giving me brain damage and tell myself that I was satan rather than god even doe the republicans are satan even doe they are god's strongest warriors and so on or something
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Like I fucked up my brain so much thinking my brain literally works by the nerve and that I had to link my nerves together by forcing them to do so in my head physically by literally grunging my head by squeezing my face so tightly because I totally misread what an asian guy said on optimizing my brain and thinking my brain literally works on theatrical timelines with a start/stop point.
Now the trump like goblin in my head said that I must reconnect each and every single nerve in my brain individually in the correct, exact, and precise order. Fuck fuck fuck shit shit shit
Medications for this feel?