/soy/ - Soyjaks

Im transitioned almost a decade and usually I’m fine with it and even forget about it sometimes. Im stealth, not a luckshit really but im passable enough that people don't really question it. But every now and then (about every month to two months or so) i just get hit in the fucking face with it. Why don’t I have a real penis. Why am I not a real man. What fucking cruel trick is god playing on me. Holy fuck. Fuck fuck fuck I need to put my glock to my skull

t. ftm who gets hard when he thinks of shooting himself even though he doesn’t actually want to anymore