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should i even try anymore geg?
like it just seems to be so over.
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>>18275121What bitcoins do you have
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>>18275121this so deep brah
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op how much money do you have
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>>18275133bitcoin is the currency, they use crypto for the entire money thingy
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>>18274823 wait that site is actually gemmy >i feel like a burden onto everybody in my life . im unstable and i try to get better but i cant . im in therapy but im scared to tell my therapist how i feel aside from processing my trauma regarding my father and daily life . i think that if i CTB and leave this world , it will cause only a small ripple effect until the people i know go back to their lives . ultimately , being the best choice to relieve people of the responsibility of knowing me . i am scared to leave my girl best friend , who herself is very unstable . i think she depends some of her happiness on me , but i hope she can find another person like me but better
>Every time it seems like i get better , and i feel amazing , happy again , a small event can trigger me to fall deep into a horrible depressive episode of self harm , loathing , rage , sadness , hate . i cut myself because it feels like a punishment enough for existing and doing what i do . during this i have no motivation , dont want to do school ( my 12th year , i promise i am 18 ) my grades go down , i throw away the opportunity i have at such an amazing school with how i am . i browse sasu everyday during these episodes and fantasize about CTBing . only made an account now ; /
>i am extremely sensitive and i lash out at my friends . i feel unsatisfied and then feel guilty for expecting them to cater to all my wants and needs . ive selfishly hurt a lot of girls ive dated .
>i was born a female but everyday i wish i was a boy . no matter how much i pray id have to go through so much just to feel only 50% like my body is mine . my older sister and brother in law believe that satan invented being gay and that lgbtq people ( me ) are lost souls corrupted by Satan . i am only tainted by my own existence and how this world has treated me .my father molested me for years and years starting as long as i can remember and ending sometime when i was 10 - 12 when my mom caught him in the act , i think . i feel horrible for my mom . she didnt know the monster she married and had children with until it was far too late .
>my parents enabled eachother and ive lost count of the nights i lied awake as a little kid hearing them get back from going out drinking with their friends , arguing , hitting , yelling at eachother . i tried to be brave so many times and get between them to intervene but my dad accused everybody of being against him and conspiring against him . my dad already had bad anger issues sober , but drunk , it was horrible .
>i think whats worse is that i entertain the thought of the possibility that my dad himself was molested , and he is only continuing the cycle of abuse . i know that his father wasnt the best father but i didnt know much else because he would never talk about it with anybody
>memories of my childhood are very blurry . hes gone now but because of that my family is financially struggling . my mom works every day to provide for us , sacrificed so much . I am a horrible child for feeling like this and not using the opportunity i have .
>my toxic asian grandma , beat me for years while i was being abused by my dad and thats definitely changed my brain chemistry as a little kid . she loathes me even now . my family sees no issue with her philosophy and way to raise a child . she is currently living with me and my family and stresses me out every day . i am taller , stronger , heavier , more muscular than her but when she yells at me , calls me stupid , says ill die , deep inside i still feel like a little boy shaking from fear keeping his hands raised trying to protect himself from her
>i hate this negative cycle im in every single day and i just want to end it all . rather than wallowing in my own misery i would rather do myself and everybody a favor and CTB . i know that theres a better existence , or none at all , on the other side â„–18275155[Quote]
>>18275132i already did iam literly around multiple places at times
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>>18275136yes DO SOMETHING JUST DO IT
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>>18275153GEG TRANNY SUICIDE ANNOUNCEMENT WEBSITE
NU GEGMINE JUST DROPPED
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>>18275153therapy just rapes you lol
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how tall are you bro and are you actually sub5 or are you just fat
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>>18275165you can tell its not bait because its namefagged to shit
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>>18275165Nusoi we used to rape this website since qa era
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>>18275173you know youre right dude ill think ill start off with cleaning services again to piece my life togheter
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>>18275195hey fuck you dont call me that
I'm an oldsoy I joined like a month ago but I read the wiki so I'm basically a /qa/ area 'teen
fyp thinks im a dork spamming me with these incomprehensible soy woahjacks
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>>182751875.6 im not fat i just look shit
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>>18275173actually motivating award
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>>18275218im 5'6 too make sure you wear lifts you can fraud up to like 5'8 and no one will know and thats basically around average height
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just do it if you want to delaying it wont do anything but waste your time and if you are actually a burden like you said you'll just continue to burden them for as long as you pussy out of it,random internet niggers on an imageboard wont change your mind and deep down you know you dont want to change your mind either so whats the point,just ack
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>>18275256my guy im walking around in some shitty nike shoes with 2 holes
or crocs lmfao
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>>18275278OP dont listen to this ESL nigger
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>>18275303what is esl about what i said
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op just beg a couple faggots in berlin for money telling them you're a gay trans jewish trans girl that was thrown out of xer parents house for coming out and you'll get some money
then go buy an airsoft handgun replica and a ski mask and go rob a bank and get rich and then you wonned lol
I know its a shitty idea but you're already planning on killing yourself so what do you have to lose? If you get caught just slit your wrists in your jailcell or something
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>>18275278you would crumble if you had to live the mere amount i have to live everyday
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>>18275320that has nothing to do with what i said
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>>18275318i already beg retarded normies for some bucks lol
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'eens, ACK-ing yourself will just prove that you are lower than a jellyfish. dont do dis
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>>18275347jellyfishes are aryan tho
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>>18275354yeah but they dont have a brain doe
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>>18275333even if it had nothing to do with what you sayd you would have killed yourself by now if you lived my shitty life.
actually motivating me to kms
youre the kind of person that makes me wanna kms i hate you
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>>18275361having a brain is niggerpilled
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op what do you think of lgbt trans flox?
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>>18275394i avoid them they are all druggies with aids
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>>18275379if you ever want to JSID yourself remember a tranny will outlive you
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>>18275414i would break my ankles walking in this
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>>18275414op is literally poor and homeless, xe can't buy that without sucking bbc
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>>18275434if you do one inch walking is basically the same
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>>18275411they will still die either way or smth
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>>18275460i feel like these would stink up my feet rapidly but ill give it a shot
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alr my battery is getting low
ill check up on this thread in a few hours if its still up by then
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>>18275491ok good make sure you wear trousers that cover your ankle region and socks that match the color of your shoe to make it harder to spot
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>>18275521 i hope you get better soon if you're not attention whoring
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>>18275551life has been rough but tnx my guy