/soy/ - Soyjaks

My vagina is big enough to fit one (1) finger, like literally a finger. My hands are small, so depending on the hand, it might not even fit that. When I was a child, I had a condition where my labia were kind of stuck together because I washed my private parts with soap and my skin was very sensitive (even today, if I use detergent without gloves, I get irritations). So, as I grew up and with creams, it started to open up again, but the opening is still very small. I literally don't have labia minora; they've kind of fused with my skin and It's really uncanny. I'm not a faggot obsessed with morality, but at 21 years old, I've never had sex due to a lack of interest. Regarding masturbation, I don't usually insert anything there. Sometimes I rub it against a pillow, but most of the time I just watch something and climax without even touching myself because when I was a pre-teen it still hurt if I tried to insert something there, and that kind of stuck in my head. Anyway, it was never something that worried me until I started liking a guy. It kind of messed up because I don't know how this is going to work. He lives in another state and is coming to see me, and I love him, but seriously, just looking at the pictures, I know his penis won't fit. The last time I went to a gynecologist, she gave me a cream with corticosteroids and estrogen to see if it would open my vagina more, but I used it for 6 months and nothing changed. She said that if it didn't work, I would probably have to have surgery, but she also said that it could open more naturally depending on the situation. I hadn't paid much attention to that, but now I know what kind of situation she was talking about. So, is that it? Should I just let my boyfriend open me up like an potato chips bag? I don't want my first time to hurt like hell. Should I wait and get surgery? I don't have the money for that, I'm kind of screwed.