/soy/ - Soyjaks

>be me
>midshit twinkhon mtf 22 yr old
>start dating a nice cis guy i found off tagmap
>after a few dates he has me stay at his house for a few nights so we can have a chance to do anal
>first step we do is use enema so i dont shit on his dick during it
>was a terrible experience, huge stomachache followed by intense liquid shit
>after thats done, he properly lubes me up
>we get to having sex and its the worst experience ever. constant pain and discomfort for minutes, especially cause he's actually quite, being 7 inches.
>my brain is just hoping for him to cum sooner so it can be over
>he ends up stopping due to fatigue, not even cumming
>about a month goes by before we actually try again
>this time i ask him to be gentler
>enema goes better atleast since i hadn't eaten that much by that point
>we get to having sex again and he can't even get it in consistently as it keeps slipping out, but when it is in there it still really hurts.
>after just a few minutes i ask to stop.

why the fuck do people like anal this is the worst experience of my life. are we doing something wrong? are all trannies masochists or something? god i hate being trans, this wouldn't be a problem if i was a real girl. i guess atleast im good at blowjobs so im good for Something i suppose… fuck my stupid tranny life