/soy/ - Soyjaks

I rarely bait. On the occasion that I do, I do it because I'm always bored and baiting is fun, not because I'm some weird faggot. I don't like BBC, I don't like BNWO, I'm not into any of that shit. I don't like soytan either, I don't think she's even attractive. The reason that I made the post, and uploaded it, was because I thought it was funny, not because I goon to it. That goes for all of my posts. I just wanted to make funny and gemmy soyjaks. I never wanted to hurt anyone, I just wanted to make people laugh. I don't care about the swinny, I don't think I've even visited it in like a couple weeks. I don't care about any splinter. I don't care about any namefag. I don't even care about anything anymore. My life without soybooru was nothing, and now that's gone. Every hobby that I've had, I just get tired or bored of it. The only thing that brought me joy was the soysphere. Everything that isn't soybooru is a giant waste of time, including real life. Why would you work for happiness when you can just ignore everything for free and just not feel any pain? Being numb feels good. I don't even remember the last time that I've actually felt happiness anyways. All of my relations are shallow, even digital ones. I have no friends, not even online ones. Nobody on soybooru even likes me anymore. Nobody cares about me, I don't appeal to any person here. Nobody understands me. My life is probably going to stay like this. I can't put dedication into anything because I always lose interest in it. This isn't an alt, this is my only account. If it was an alt I wouldn't spend so much time on my uploads (I spend hours on some of my posts). I'm not a faggot, at least not fully. I'm sorry to all of the people that I have betrayed by choosing to make this post. I'm sorry to the people that were hurt by that option. I'm sorry to soybooru for making it worse. I'm sorry to everyone that I have hurt, or been rude to, or have told them to kill themselves, or have called a tranny, faggot, peto, groomer etc. I didn't mean any of those things. I just have a short temper. I hope everyone understands.