/soy/ - Soyjaks

I've spent so much time hating my own male traits and reading other's doomposting over their masculine appearance that I think I've completely lost the ability to find most men attractive at all. Pronounced brow ridges, strong jaws, firm eyebrows, manly body hair, broad shoulders, being tall… Everything that makes a guy conventionally attractive just makes me imagine how ugly he'd be if he tried to troon out.

I'll see barrel chested chads strutting around with girls on their arms and feel nothing but pity for the tortured trans woman they would be forced to live as. Tall guys who need to duck through doorways just make me imagine them trying and failing to force themselves into a sundress and giving up halfway through, in tears. Burly, well-rounded fellows with full beards ripping their first amazon basics dress, 2 o' clock stubble already peeking through their freshly-shaved face.

I don't even see men as men anymore. Instead I see their features. <22 inch bideltoids, elongated philtrums, chad jawlines. I sort, then categorize them according to what kind of trans woman they'd turn into. Everywhere around me I see gigahons, ogrehons, sneedhons. Every once in a while I'll see a pretty twinkhon. Rarely, in a blue moon, I'll see a luckshit. Those are the only men I'm really attracted to, the ones who could pass as beautiful women with a bit of HRT and a cute dress. Even then, the clock is ticking. I want to grab them by the shoulders and yell at them to pump grey market estrogen into their veins before it's Too Late and despair at knowing it'd be pointless to try.

Testosterone is a sick, sick, deeply evil chemical.