/soy/ - Soyjaks

Tried smoking today, I felt nothing. I am a fuck up made flesh, all I do all day is sit behind a screen and eat slop to control me, and whats worse is that I do it by choice. I could be building the Third Rome right now, I could be on top of the world. Yet I remain in my repeated life cycle. Zero motivation to do anything else. My dopamine and reward system is so molested that I can't get a single joy out of a cigarette.