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i'm getting my hands on some benzos, having a nice meal, getting wasted, and then overdosing. my life is a pathetic humiliation ritual and i just can't take it anymore. i hate seeing cis women living the life i wish i could, i hate being in public and looking at clothes i can never wear in stores, i hate being so ugly that people look at me with at worst disgust and at best a manufactured smile. i will never be a woman. i'm one of the people who doesn't get to succeed in life, who doesn't get to have a happy ending, and i don't know what else to do but this. i'm terrified of death but at least it'll come quickly, and we all have to die at some point so what difference does it make now.
everyone will remember me as a man, my gravestone will have a male name, but i hope they finally see the suffering and pain i'm in every second of my existence, even if it's far too late