/soy/ - Soyjaks

I (18) MtF was kicked out of the house last Wednesday. She said she doesn't want to call me by my chosen name. She said she believes in her truth and her truth was the bible. She said I am a boy and I always will be. I said do you mean sex or gender, and she replied with there the same thing. I tried to protest but to no avail. She said if I want to make an adult decision and transition I have to do other adult decisions (go to therapy and apply for income assistance because I don't have a job). She said she never saw any signs. There were plenty she just never saw them. She said her truth was the bible and when I said I didn't believe in the bible ( something she already knows), she said there was the door. When I was going to my room to get my things she said I don't know why I chose this.

Thank god my parents are divorced or I would be homeless. I'm currently staying with my dad. Today on Sunday she called me to talk. She said she loves me and I will always be welcome, but she still refuses to call me by my chosen name. She said if I don't abide by her rules I won't be allowed back. I said I don't know if I can come back after what she said, and she replied with something about her "experience" to be honest I don't know what she said I mentally checked out of the conversation a while ago.

Right now I'm just tired, and don't know what to do. On one hand, I was always closer to her than I was to my dad, and I liked spending time with her. But on the other hand when she does this.

Thank you for reading my rant nusois, I just need to let it off my chest.