/soy/ - Soyjaks

i stress about everything, like literally. I can't socialise and i can't be alone either, also i can't even talk with my family members without stress (even doe i love my family). Every time i go outside i really feel like it's some kind of humiliation ritual. Every time i do my hobbies i think how bad im actually at it and when im trying to relax im thinking about how much of a lazy fuck im and that even some starving niggers in africa are still working on their lives while im whining like a faggot (and i don't even relax because of it). It doesn't get better online too since i got some kind of irony poisoning or something and im a self hating furfaggot for like a year (im not a gooner doe). Are there any ways to stop this and finally enjoy life?
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also sorry for ESL