/soy/ - Soyjaks

Being a somewhar neurodivergent 5/10 has nerfed me so much

I'm 21. Never been anyone's crush. Never dated or kissed. Always was in a weird juxtaposition where some people would treat me fine and some as an autistic child.
I'm lower inhib, more extroverted and more okayish looking now than i used to be but i still feel terrible when I see myself in a video or photo someone took where i couldnt angle and lighting fraud. I just dont look or behave like someone you'd actually respect much. I guess I could be a clown or comedian. That's the vibe I give off. I dont look that masculine or like an adult.

I mean, it COULD be WAY worse. That's what I keep telling myself. I don't look like a subhuman, nor am I THAT short (5'9), nor do i have the shittiest bones. But overall im just invisible and nerfed by being weird or goofy