/soy/ - Soyjaks

Sometimes i randomly think it's crazy that i made it to the age i'm at
i'm not even old but I heard so many stories of kids dying in freak accidents and babies accidentally getting ran over and I think, "Why did I make it this far but they didn't?"
and I feel like a bad person because those kids never even got a chance to live while i'm just killing time on bald man with glasses website
this feels especially relevant now with all the celebrity deaths happening

I feel like I already wasted several lifetimes worth of time, even if I'm still young. And if I died tomorrow everyone would say, "Oh no he was just a kid!!!" but I still wasted 70% of the time that I've lived so far. And I think most people are this way. If I got hit by a bus tomorrow and started dying, I would feel like such an idiot for not taking my life more seriously. But I feel like this is how all of us live. We pretend like death is not real, like illness is not real, we pretend we have infinite time to do anything & it can always wait until tomorrow.