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op is autistic
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NIGGER WHAT IS A TG CAPTION
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>>17467184grooming victim
probably
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Here's what I'm hearing, stripped of the forum voice, since you asked me not to mock it:
You went through your parents' divorce and started using explicit stories (TG/TGTF captions) compulsively from a young age. Around that same period, you experienced something as a child — a "jail game" with other kids, plus early unsupervised internet access, possibly followed by sexual abuse — that you're now, as an adult, trying to make sense of. That early stuff and the compulsive porn use feel connected to you. Later you found your way into far-right online spaces (/pol/, 4chan board culture) and picked up a worldview that blames Jewish people for pornography and LGBTQ identities — and that worldview, tangled up with "NoFap"/"NeverGoon" discipline, became your main tool for fighting the compulsion. It's worked to a degree, but you still slip, including something you call IVSW (arousal in that hazy half-asleep state), and a recent relapse that felt out of your control and shook you.
On your actual question: a young child cannot meaningfully consent to a sexual game, full stop — age and power imbalance make consent impossible regardless of how it was framed at the time or whether you "went along with it." If what you're describing is what it sounds like, it's reasonable to call that abuse, and it's a completely normal, common pattern for something like that to resurface later as compulsive sexual behavior. That's not a character flaw, it's a known trauma response.
One honest thing I want to say, not to lecture you: the antisemitic conspiracy stuff about who "pushes" porn or LGBTQ identity isn't true, and hating a group of people isn't actually the same thing as healing — it can feel like clarity and structure for a while, but it's a different kind of grip on your mind, not the absence of one. The compulsion you're fighting is real and worth fighting. The story about why it exists that you picked up along the way is a separate thing, and you don't need it to keep the discipline you've built.
What you're describing — the childhood experience, plus a compulsion that still feels like it can override you — is genuinely worth talking through with an actual trauma-informed therapist, not just an internet framework. If you ever want a starting point, RAINN (1-800-656-4673, online.rainn.org) supports adult survivors processing childhood sexual abuse, and it's confidential.
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>Here's what I'm hearing, stripped of the forum voice, since you asked me not to mock it:
>You went through your parents' divorce and started using explicit stories (TG/TGTF captions) compulsively from a young age. Around that same period, you experienced something as a child — a "jail game" with other kids, plus early unsupervised internet access, possibly followed by sexual abuse — that you're now, as an adult, trying to make sense of. That early stuff and the compulsive porn use feel connected to you. Later you found your way into far-right online spaces (/pol/, 4chan board culture) and picked up a worldview that blames Jewish people for pornography and LGBTQ identities — and that worldview, tangled up with "NoFap"/"NeverGoon" discipline, became your main tool for fighting the compulsion. It's worked to a degree, but you still slip, including something you call IVSW (arousal in that hazy half-asleep state), and a recent relapse that felt out of your control and shook you.
>On your actual question: a young child cannot meaningfully consent to a sexual game, full stop — age and power imbalance make consent impossible regardless of how it was framed at the time or whether you "went along with it." If what you're describing is what it sounds like, it's reasonable to call that abuse, and it's a completely normal, common pattern for something like that to resurface later as compulsive sexual behavior. That's not a character flaw, it's a known trauma response.
>One honest thing I want to say, not to lecture you: the antisemitic conspiracy stuff about who "pushes" porn or LGBTQ identity isn't true, and hating a group of people isn't actually the same thing as healing — it can feel like clarity and structure for a while, but it's a different kind of grip on your mind, not the absence of one. The compulsion you're fighting is real and worth fighting. The story about why it exists that you picked up along the way is a separate thing, and you don't need it to keep the discipline you've built.
>What you're describing — the childhood experience, plus a compulsion that still feels like it can override you — is genuinely worth talking through with an actual trauma-informed therapist, not just an internet framework. If you ever want a starting point, RAINN (1-800-656-4673, online.rainn.org) supports adult survivors processing childhood sexual abuse, and it's confidential.
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fascinating
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why supprrs your natural urges tho its manly to goon
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>>17467168 (OP)whatever tg means
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>the jail game
marge
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>>17467184>>17467755a tg caption means a transgender caption, it's where people attach wordswordswords to an image to encourage trooning out
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>>17467763furthermore, a tf caption is a transfem caption and a tm caption is a transmasc caption
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Im not wasting my precious time reading this
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>>17467771>>17467763how the fuck do you know this?
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>>17467789deviantart gooning, same as op
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>>17467797you need to kill yourself if youre jacking off on deviantart
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tulip gravestone or something
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Femquote is literally mid as fuck oh my god nigga you are nonhuman
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>>17467801not anymore obviously, i did it when i was a caca
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groomed nigga above
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>>17467238>the antisemetic conspiracy theory what a funny cohencidence now ask what its favorite planet is
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>>17467820it VILL say saturn
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I know you soygods are used to bait on the catty, but this is a true story. Don't turn this into a shitty pasta. So basically I used to goon to tg captions on deviantart after my parents divorced possibly because of modern day hypergamy idk. Anyways the problem I had for a long time probably had something to do with the jail game when I was caca that I can't define as consent given how young I was at the time. I think it was before middle school possibly when I was in elementary school or was it before that. Anyways I was also epi'd around that time with unrestricted access to the internet and was possibly epi'd before sodomized. Does the jail game count as me being groomed? Moving back to the story I ended up devolving into gooning to tgtf sometimes too. The worst was when I read this multi part tgtf series stroking and edging for literal hours. What saved me was partly /pol/ as they clitty leaked and redpilled me on how jews push pornography, transgenderism, etc. This is why I now hate troons, fags, and epi. It's because it's grooming you to be a degenerate puppet. Later down the line the so called 4cuck got raided by some obsessed snarky snappy guys and I thought it was just some official special event as I watched it happen in real time. I had the website open when it started and wondered what a /qa/ even was. As the site was down I eventually found the snarky snappy which I think was near end froot era since quote got rid of the raisin filter and I still remember the old booru having the raisin messages just like the snarky snappy. The other thing that helped me was no nut november which was me dipping my toes in the water which eventually became never goon. Ever since I got really serious about nevergoon I've mentally been less vulnerable to degeneracy that used to mind break me. Although admittedly it had been a struggle and streaks get broken from time to time because of what I call ivsw which is involuntary sleep wake meaning you goon when you aren't fully awake and you aren't fully asleep either. Like nocturnal emissions. Recently I gooned to that femquote at the beach wearing the swimsuit near the sign saying "this thread" and it felt like I wasn't in control of my actions. It was supposed to be a joke. The fq stuff wasn't supposed to actually harm me. It made me ridiculously hard and it wouldn't go down no matter how long I waited. It even started slowly corrupting my mind. Despite failing that day I won't let it stop my never goon grindset mindset because I can imagine the gigabuff yellow minion and aryan beast cobson smiling upon me. Don't get demoralized by the baitcord or the furcord, or even the vishnucord. If they try to brap up the 'log or groom you just spam gore until they go away. It's fine now since salt unbanned gore posting. Keep on keeping on soygods. We can defeat the groomers. We can make it through the tranny yuga. Never goon. Never troon.
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>>17467842what the fuck is vishnucord
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>>17467808I assume the person behind the 'pasta did the same as a caca.