/soy/ - Soyjaks

Uhhh hi, I'm 26, and I've wanted to be a girl since I was around 14. I told my parents back then, but it was really awkward and went nowhere, so I mostly stopped thinking about it. Sometimes I forget about it entirely.

I've never really felt like transitioning would actually make me satisfied or feel like a “real” girl anyway. I don't really identify as gay or queer, and I've never been interested in crossdressing before.

Lately, though, I've started wanting to wear skirts and cute clothes and actually look cute. The problem is that I'm tall and have a very masculine frame, so I feel like I'd just look ridiculous. I keep wishing I were younger, shorter, and cuter, and it's turning into a bit of a crisis.

I'm honestly feeling pretty hopeless about ever getting to experience the life I want. I've prayed so many times that I'd somehow wake up as a girl, and even though I know that's unrealistic, part of me still hopes God might somehow give me what I want. It's basically the only hope I have left for experiencing that dream.

what should i do just kill myself or something?

i hate that'd i'd literally do anything but there is nothing i could possibly do to get what i really want i would sacrifice a lot and commit atrocities if it meant i would be rewarded with being a cute girl.