/soy/ - Soyjaks

I would do literally anything to have been born the opposite sex (yes, anything). I hate having been born male and I'm sickened that I'll never have the body or reproductive system I want. I will never live up to the expectations of women. My body will only be seen as attractive by fetishists, and will be seen as disgusting by everyone else.. men would leave me for anyone born female no matter what. I'm ill with envy and if I could just have one day where everything was the same, but I were born as the opposite sex, I could die happy afterwards. I'm too malebrained and amab to even pass as being assigned female. I'm nonbinary, I don't care what pronouns people use for me or anything. All I want is to look like I was afab. I'm not taken seriously by cissoids or other trans people and have no community anywhere. I've been on HRT since I was 17, and I'm 22. It's starting to just feel like it may be over.