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Wow based on your post you really sound like you're attractive and have enough quality of character to not be affected by other people's judgments of you.
The thing is, I'm genuinely homophobic. I firmly believe it is innate to male psychology and physiology to seek out a young and attractive partner of the opposite gender, and that any deviation from this is at the absolute best a knowing compromise of this innate God-given virtue of being male. Anything and everything that could possibly follow will always stem from this fundamental self-deceit.
I don't think it's possible that something as natural as your inner longing for a physical feminine presence in your life could have possibly been warped against your interest without any external influence at all. Maybe you can't even look back and logically point to anything but yourself, but people or beings who hate you and want to hurt you did guide you down this path, and you will always be a barking dog of Satan so long as you stick to it.