/soy/ - Soyjaks

Alright I should probably just get the cat out of the bag. When I was 12 years old I fell in love with Red Panda after watching a youtuber play as her in the background of a commentary video. This would start out as just a crush. Like all the Arsenal skins was just a blank slate but in my head I would think of lore and character ideas for her that stayed in there. I remember finding fanart that depicted her with the onesie off and I got attracted to it too and added it to my (literal) headcanon on the character. All this would devolve into me finding porn of her and getting an addiction. Years pass by and I'm an adult yet I unfortunately haven't overcome it. At the same time I started gooning to Red Panda the other character I did it to was Demon Queenie from ok ko. It's been so long since its started and I don't even remember that characters voice and I see that show as troonslop yet that character in specific I got epi'd on newgrounds of porn of her which led me to finding r34 sites which led me to finding the Red Panda porn which mixed with the headcanons I had conceptualized. Its been so long since I played Roblox and I don't know if Arsenal is even still popular or if Rolve every characterized her officially but I still get these thoughts about Red Panda. I've never told anyone about this until now and I really hope saying this here will get it off my mind easier.

Also I started playing tf2 recently and that reminded me of Arsenal as I used to think Arsenal was based directly off it when I was younger as I didn't know how tf2 gameplay was or the classes and just thought of the gameplay as having a red and blue team. This made me start to imagine a Meet the Team video about Red Panda which wasn't sexual but still made me think of the character a bit more.