/soy/ - Soyjaks

i can't take this shit anymore 'eens. i have no one else to talk to about this so i'll throw this out to get buried. my friends don't really give a shit either because while i've made it clear that i just want to talk to them they just brush it off with "idk how to help lol" and ignore me while they keep posting their fucking vacation pics.

simply put, i've been a victim of domestic abuse since i was born. i'm old enough now that most normieniggers can just say "move out" or "get a job" but i can't do that either because i'm mentally disabled with a bunch of debilitating disorders, all diagnosed and some probably not uncovered yet. i'm waiting on the government to give me neetbux soon but they take their time on purpose because the amerimutt government is so fucked. i can't remember the last time i ate anything proper because i can't afford anything and the food around here is genetically modified into rubber. my domestic abuser is a family member too which makes everything worse. my last hope is that they stop taking their meds so i can call the feds on them for being a danger to themselves and others.

i don't want to say that i'm suicidal either because i really want to keep living, i want something to live for. but it feels like just trying to get by is some sort of mossad levels of torture. we take a lot of things for granted i think. to those of you who are better off–take a moment to appreciate the peace around you. do it for me and the people who can't.

i'm just so tired of everything and feel like i'm losing my mind. i can't even get out of bed. i'm probably going to have to make an escape plan soon if things go south. and even then i have nowhere to go. i'll walk and perish of heatstroke without a car. ubers also cost 80$ around here per ride no matter where it's to.

i can't think anymore. it hurts to. i can't even get out of bed anymore.