/soy/ - Soyjaks

I'm a generic loser that is only now wanting to be somewhat the usual girl. I have like a few forms of eyeliner products but I still can't do a simple wing. I also have tube mascara, concealer, pressed powder, powder blush, matte lipsticks, lip balm, lip liner. I want to "complete" the kit by getting foundation and a good set of eyeshadow.
It irks me that there is so many makeup products and a lot of them are expensive as fuck. I also found out, if you don't have a good skincare routine, the makeup wont look as good and now I have to think of getting moisturising skincare and get makeup remover.

Another problem is when I wear makeup, I only have generic shirts and pants from years of being a tomboy, so I feel like it looks unmatching. When I wear blush and lipstick, on me I look like a clown. But other girls own it effortlessly

I feel so insecure. Am I just overthinking this? What am I doing wrong?