/soy/ - Soyjaks

I've decided to take control of the situation I'm in. It's like a hell let me break it down for you.
From a point on I decided to live life from a monk perspective where no desire would be conquering me and I would make myself immune to desire. the process is like hell no matter how hard I try my brain subconscious and hormones made me chase after woman again. I know I'm not doing something wrong because I have a very legit feeling telling me I'm doing the right thing here. I must overcome any desire comming my way I must become a real super human being by doing that. Imagine a life you are free so bad that you wouldn't even think about fucking or chasing a girl you see on a bar class/ street or where ever. it feels like pure freedom. This life style isn't for anyone but I must become this and I'm almost there help me with your pure wisdom so I can get through it. I want my magnetic radiation vaporize everyone as I pass in the street