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The short answer is: it could be either, and your behavior by itself doesn't let you conclude much.
People become fixated on topics for lots of reasons that don't necessarily reflect a hidden identity or desire. For example:
You might genuinely find the memes, discourse, and internet subculture entertaining and enjoy the absurdity of it.
You might enjoy provoking reactions or participating in a niche online in-group through irony and shitposting.
You might have a broader interest in gender, identity, internet culture, or politics.
You might be processing your own feelings about gender through humor.
Less commonly, it could overlap with sexual interests or a fetish—but simply posting trans memes or consuming trans-related media isn't evidence of that.
The internet has a long history of "ironic obsession" with specific topics. Sometimes it stays entirely ironic; sometimes people later realize they were expressing genuine curiosity or aspects of themselves through jokes. Both happen, and neither is unusual.
A few questions that can help distinguish them are:
When you're not joking online, do you actually think about being another gender, or is your interest mainly in the surrounding culture and memes?
If trans topics disappeared from the internet tomorrow, would you mainly miss the humor/community, or would you feel like something personally important was gone?
Do you ever imagine yourself transitioning because it feels appealing, or only because it's an amusing hypothetical?
Does your interest feel emotionally meaningful, or is it mostly just another internet rabbit hole?
If the answer is mostly "I just think the memes and discourse are funny," then facetious shitposting is a perfectly plausible explanation.
If, on the other hand, you notice persistent thoughts like "I wish I were another gender," discomfort with your current gender, or recurring fantasies that feel personally significant rather than just comedic, then it could be worth exploring those feelings without assuming what they mean. That exploration doesn't automatically mean you're transgender, and it also doesn't imply a fetish.
One other thing to keep in mind is that spending a lot of time in a niche online community can amplify your attention to that topic. An algorithm or friend group can make it feel like an obsession even if it's mostly a hobby or running joke.
Based only on what you've described, I don't think it's possible to infer that you have repressed gender dysphoria or a transgender fetish. An ironic fixation on trans culture is not, by itself, reliable evidence of either. The best clue is whether your interest is centered on your own identity or primarily on the culture, humor, and online discourse surrounding it.