/soy/ - Soyjaks

I can't sleep anymore because I keep getting jolted awake. The best way I can describe it is that I start applying structures of problem solving to my thoughts indiscriminately. In this state, I don't use words or pictures to do my thinking, but thought primitives. What I think of as discrete responses or solutions to previous problems I've encountered, are applied to seemingly whatever is on my mind. I'm not sure if this is new or something is causing me to retain enough consciousness to notice what it's like when I dream. I wouldn't call it lucid because I'm not aware. When I do become aware I quickly get the sense of dread similar too when the brain is starving of oxygen or after a concussive blow before the pain sets in. Then I reflect on what I was doing until the cycle repeats. The involuntary cycle of self awareness part is really stressful; pretty similar to when I tried weed once.

It's still kind of cool. I starting applying new factorio belting tricks I learned playing Pyanodons to some incelcoded fantasy I was having and it felt completely normal.