/soy/ - Soyjaks

9m on hrt, i think my libido is coming back

> be me
> gaming
> notice chests of men in game
> feel something is off
> browse board and see a horny thread
> whole body shaking
> mind blank
> can't use wand cus I'm not alone
> end up reading smut for 2 hours
> not enough
> go through about 2000 messages with a chaser and look at his pictures
> mind goes blank imagining him slamming me with his cock
> nothing I do helps
> spend another 30 minutes just laying in bed with my phone
> mouth open
> panting
> zero thoughts just imagining getting railed
> never been this aroused just by thoughts
> feels like it'll never stop
> imagine the chaser is giving me after care
> forehead kisses, letting me lay on his chest, hugging me tight, using his biceps as a pillow
> imagine cooking him breakfast as thanks for fucking me
> start getting sleepy and pass out for 15 minutes
> wake up still horny, but way less
> unsatisfied but there's nothing I can do

> I just spent 3 hours gooning without touching myself properly
> never had sex but I feel the need to get railed, used and degraded

is it what it'll be like from now on? It felt like I was an animal in heat is this normal?