>>16576115 (OP)I know it's hard to act on, especially if you've lived a life of "people pleasing" (to use a kiked pop-psych term) but you have to know that nobody has your back and that you can only ever trust yourself. There's no reason to talk to or befriend other people unless you stand to gain something from it, be that temporary pleasure from being admired or social connections to get you into tangible good positions. From the sound of it, you are not gaining anything from being around these people. Don't waste your time associating with hylics unless you stand to gain something from it; it's better to be alone and secure than in the presence of others while wallowing in unappreciated frustration. Or something