/soy/ - Soyjaks

i'm dug myself into such a pit of loneliness i don't think i can get out. i hate how my life was stolen from me, i hate that i'm such a vapid attentionwhore, i hate how behind everyone else i am. i was born cursed and i didn't take the steps i needed to unfuck my life so now what? i just keep wasting away until i kill myself or worse get sectioned where they'll take away my hrt and string me up on SSRIs?
i can barely function. can't shave, can't clean my room, can barely brush my teeth, can't go to school. i'm a failure and a genetic dead end too. it would make no difference to anyone or the world if i was dead so i wish i had the willpower to end things like i deserve. normal people don't think like this and all i've ever wanted was just to be fucking normal