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>this is not bait nor a larp
>i dont know why, normally i despise christianity, but the thought of submitting to christ makes me incredibly horny, i cant focus on anything else
>my parents are totally against religion and especially critical of christianity so they never took me to church or taught me anything about religion
>last year i wanted to read more into christianity to know like if maybe it was true and i was missing out or whatever just because i didnt know what it said and i decided that if i wanted to really know how it felt i had to try converting to christianity at least for a week
>thing is, when i tried reading the pater noster out loud and got on my knees to pray to christ i got a massive erection and the more i prayed the more excited i got, even secreting some preejaculate. i wasnt imagining anything sexual either, just christ hearing my prayers
>i felt bad and that i couldnt continue so i dropped the christian larp immediately, but since then ive developped this delusion (that i only really indulge in when im horny) that god makes me horny as his way of showing me im his child or whatever, sort of like the ecstasy of saint theresa and i imagine myself wearing the habit of a nun and cumming just by praying to christ and having like this occult thing where ive reached gnosis through sexuality or whatever
>this only happens with christianity, ive tried imagining some similar scenario with many other religions but none get me even remotely like this
>i havent even read the gospels, ive only read genesis some years ago and im reading exodus right now
>outside of this i dont really like christianity, where i live protestantism is nonexistent and everyone is catholic, and every overtly catholic person that has interacted with me has treated me like shit. there a few muslim immigrants who are actually very nice to me but i dont have any weird thing with islam
>what the fuck is wrong with me
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Jannies approve dis now
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