/soy/ - Soyjaks

I literally just got home after being anally raped. I genuinely feel so fucking disgusting right now. Genuinely how could I let another man fuck my ass and cum in me? Genuinely I fucking hate myself right now I am so disgusting I can't believe I just let a man rape me and cum inside my ass. Genuinely how could I let this happen? And not only that but as his cock got deeper it began touching my prostate and it actually fucking felt good having my prostate touched by his tip and I feel like a disgusting faggot sissy I didn't want this I didn't consent how am I so much of a filthy faggot slut that I let a man cum in my ass and enjoy it, even if only a little bit. My ass hurts idk why my nerves just made me feel that way I am disgusting I hate myself I can't get foids yet somehow I can take a fat cock like a slutty bitch faggot? Genuinely what do I do?